Is it love?

Chapter 32

I was still crying above the bath and then I heard a knock on the door "Juggie Karen is here!" Veronica said . Karen is a women who is like her second mother . She was my mom best friend and she also works for the social services . "Um..okay I'll be right down.." i said and then I heard her leave my room . I got rid of the blood on my arms and got out of the bathroom . I put a shirt on and then my varsity jacket . My arms were hurting so bad . I got downstairs . I saw Karen in the kitchen and she got up . I didn't even looked at her or say anything and I hugged her , I really needed that hug . We hugged for a while and then I pulled away "hi Jughead" she said and I gave her a sweet smile . I sat down next to her and Ronnie arrived "Guys I've got some news.." she said and I looked at her "so I've been talking to you about a foster family , for you BOTH of course...and I finally found one..." she said and I looked at Veronica. "They live here in riverdale , they don't have any kids . " she said and I looked at Veronica "so..we won't live here anymore.?" I asked and she shocked her head . I sighed . "Their name are Mark and Mary Mendes , they worked for us before but sadly the girl that they were having stoped breathing in her sleep..." she said and Veronica smiled sadly "so we will have parents again?!" She said and Karen nodded her head . I wasn't so sure about this but that's the only option . I can't really trust people after what my dad did . "So you guys need to pack you're things , you're leaving tomorrow!" She said and she got up . She smiled and looked at me "Jughead can we have a word in private?" She said and I got up . We went in the living room . We sat down on the couch and she sighed . "I know what happened between you're father and you, that he hired people to hurt you..how are you holding up ?" She asked and I brushed my hand trough my hair , getting my sleeves up accidentally. "Wait.." She said grabbing my arm . She got my sleeves up carefully and saw my bloody scars . I dragged my hands away and looked down "these are fresh jug..you promised you wouldn't do it again!" She said and I sighed . "Why..do you to it." She said and I put my face in my hands . She was about to say something but I stoped her "because I'm sad Karen! I'm constantly sad and..there's nothing you can't do about it . I spend the whole year wondering why I was still alive and if I even deserve it...and I don't . I'm just a depressed boy that nobody cares about who his mom his death..because of his father that is in jail because he killed a women , raped his daughter , abused his son with a broom , raped him , at tree tried , burned him on the oven , landed him to the hospital! That's all I am...an useless piece of trash!" I yelled and she looked shook . She grabbed my hands and I then started to cry . She sighed and hugged me "you're not an useless piece of trash and you do deserve to live okay..you matter to me , you matter to Veronica , Betty , you're friends!" She said and I just kept crying . She eventually leaved . I got in my room and started to pack my things . I took everything that I needed , and that includes my blade and my pills.

THE NEXT DAY

I got downstairs and I saw Veronica. I hate to admit it but , I'm kinda gonna miss this house . I looked at Veronica and gave her a sad smiled . I hugged her and then I heard the door open . It was Karen "Are you guys ready?" She asked and we nodded our head . We got in a car and drive to our new house , I was really nervous . Veronica grabbed my hand and gave me a reassuring smiled . I sighed and then we arrived . It was a little house , sweet but little .