Love is a Burden

Chapter 7

(WARNING: some suicidal dialogue, just to let you know, and if anyone is going through this currently remember. What ever you're going through is temporary.  Suicide is permanent. And I'm always open to talk btw)

You walk a little faster, since Sans decided to chase you. "Y-y/n come on.. can't ya you just come home!!!?" You chuckle at his inability to walk at your pace. You decide to run.... cause you're a dick. "Fuck!!!" Sans yells as you dash away, losing him in the process. You look around at your surroundings, trying to pinpoint where you are. It was wet. Yes. And it was getting a lot warmer. You took a guess that this was that place waterfall. Toriel had told you it was right after Snowdin. You run a little longer as you turn and reach a very dark place. The ceiling has these gem things that almost mimic the stars.... almost. You walk a little further and begin to hear the sounds of moving water. You chuckle, after all you loved the sound of rushing water... and so did your mother. (If you really dont like it than just pretend you do.) You finally find a huge waterfall and the trail you had been walking on leads into a large field. Which is full of flowers. You walk through the flowers, careful not to step on them. As you walk you hear little whispers, and they seem to be coming from the flowers below you. You hear many different voices, but they all seem to be saying the same things. They were all wishes to get up to the surface, and to escape this hell hole. You sigh. "This must be some monster tradition or something.... almost like how humans wish under falling stars. The monsters wish under their stars." You whisper, a sad smile spreads across your face. You find a little perch to sit on that over looks a lake, and the rushing waterfall above it. Every once in a while, a small piece of trash falls into the lake below... it makes you almost feel empty inside, well emptier. This whole place had an amazing view. You wonder if anybody lives here. Sadly you pull the picture of your mom out of your pocket, and glance over it. It was her in a yellow bikini, with her favourite surfboard tucked under her arm, the waves beating gently behind her. She smiled like there was no tomorrow, like everyone the whole entire world was happy in this very moment. You thought silently to yourself as something warm and wet ran down your face. You knew what it was but didn't have the energy to wipe it away. It was as if this picture sucked the life out of you, and in a way it did. You looked at the lake below you and one thought came to mind.  (SUICIDAL DIALOGUE START) How deep was the lake, and if you jumped in it, would it kill you?? Your eyes widened as you shook your head, clearing the thought away, or at least trying to. Many other of these thoughts came to you as you sat there. Completely alone...
No one to comfort you...
It was you, only you, and it would always be this way, so why not jump? Why not finally be happy. Who knows, you might even be with your mom after it all ended... You didn't stand, knowing that if you did, the temptation of jumping wouldn't just be some guilty pleasure anymore. (SUICIDAL DIALOGUE END) You looked off at something and frowned. A single flower sat next to you on the little cliffside. It was one of these little whisper flowers, and it was reciting someone's wish. Your eyes widen as you recognize the voice. It was Sans. It wasn't a wish to be on the surface like everyone else's, in fact as you listened closer it said sadly "I dont wanna get up on the surface really anymore, I just wanna find somebody to talk to.... yeah i know it's kinda stupid, but hey, ya know what they say. Once an idiot always an idiot...." the voice faded out quitely, but repeated the wish after a while. You chuckle feeling a knot form in your stomach. "Hey, I mean he's right.. about the idiot thing at least." You look down feeling the tears pour down from your face.

                         -Sans' POV-
I tried to catch my breath as I ran a little further. Damn this kid was fast!!! I walked little and looked around. The kid was long gone, but I had some idea where he might have gone. I teleported to waterfall. Hoping my suspicions were true. I walked around the back way of waterfall, hoping to surprise him so he wouldn't see me and dash. I was quiet as I reached the echo flower field. I've been here a lot, so I noticed the one voice that it was different. It was Y/n. Thank Asgore. I listened a little bit more and the flower repeated his remark.  "This must be some monster tradition or something.... almost like how humans wish under falling stars. The monsters wish under their stars." I chuckled and walked a little. He sounded pretty worn out to me. I walked silently for a while and say my favourite perch. Shit there he was!! Right next to my flower to!! Damn!! He must've heard my wish by now!! I peered into his face, only to see tear stained eyes, and him clutching something to his chest. "Oh.. oh shit, he's crying? Did his dad really make him that upset?" Something in side me told me that he wasn't crying over his dad, but something kept bugging me..
How the hell did he get up there?! I mean I gotta' teleport up there... Can he teleport? He can use his soul, and that was clear from his fight with Undyne. He glanced at the echo flower next to him and I ducked, hoping he didn't see me. He didn't say anything, so I assumed that he hadn't. I glanced up to see him whispering something into the flower. I sighed, trying to settle my nerves. Shaking my head, I teleported behind him, staying silent. His voice was shaky as he whispered into the flower. "Me too bud, me too..." he looked at the water under him and sighed. "Another day another heartache..." he added. I couldnt help myself. "Heya kid..." Y/n whiped his head around to look at me, and turned around just as quickly. "Hey Sans..." he said, the shakiness in his voice disappearing, I wouldn't even have known anything was wrong if I hadn't seen him crying. But his voice also had this unmistakable emptiness to it... "What are ya' doin' here... I thought I'd lost ya'..."  I chuckled. "Yeah you did, but I had a feelin that you'd be here." He laughed and turned a little, his gaze still focused on the water. I walked over to him and sat down, grunting on the way down. He turned to me and smiled sadly. "So what's with your wish... wanted someone to talk to right??" I asked him and he laughed. "Hey your the one that wanted it first." I smirked and chuckled. "Yeah whatever asshole." He laughed and looked back at the water, the muscles in his arms bulging. "Okay, what are you really here for Sans, cause I know you're not just here to hang out." I sighed. "Just, well I mean you ran right after your fight with Undyne, so I assumed you were hurt or somethin...." my face heated up, and I was starting to choke. "Ha!! Your pretty funny for a skeleton...." he said, the emptiness in his voice showing greatly. It was silent for a while before I got up and stretched, my back and hips popping. "Auggh! Damn I'm getting old..." y/n laughed and I looked behind me, into the field of echo flowers below us.  "Well I gotta go. But I'll be here tomorrow, water you thinkin'. Shall I sea  you there?" He laughed gently, still looking at the water. "Shore I'll be there." He chuckled at his own pun, and I teleported back to Snowdin. I did feel a little guilty about leaving him there, but he seemed to fair pretty well on his own, so it settled the little knot forming in the pit of my stomach... but even the strongest of people needed someone right? I sure hoped so....