forgive and forget

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Shae's Pov

I woke up in Harry's embrace. His arms where wrapped securly around me and his head lied atop of mine. He looked so peaceful. I don't remember going to sleep last night. The last thing I remember was crying in his arms. Fuck i'm so stupid. This has been the best relationship I have ever been in and I messed up. I don't know why he is even still here with me. I turned my body to face his and nuzzled into his warm chest. His eyes fluttered open and his arms let go of me forming into a stretch.

"Im sorry did I wake you?" I panicked.

"No, no you're fine." He said standing up.

"Harry look, i'm sorry and I know I've said this a million times in the past 24 hours but I just don't even know what got into me and I honestly still can't believe what I did like it's not me and-" His lips pressed against mine as his hand carressed my cheek.

Slowly he pulled away. "I know I said it was fine last night. But after you fell asleep I just started thinking about it and no it isnt fine. But you know what? I love you so much and I truly think you love me, but after last night it did give me doubts. But then I remembered all that I had done and there was this one girl who I did the same thing as you did and I did love her it was just a mistake and we are going to have bumps in our relationship but I'm willing to move forward with you and forget about this. But you need to stop blaming yourself and going back to last night." He said suprisingly calm. I dont know how he is acting so calm though. If he or anyone did this to me I would be out and there would be no going back. But I didnt want to break up with him. As he says I am the best thing to ever happen to him, he is the best thing thats happened to me and I cant let him go.

"Okay you're right. I just still can't believe it. I can't believe you are still here." I sighed.

"I know, me either." He laughed

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After we had gotten breakfast Harry and I had taken a walk around the town. We have been here for a few days and we were going to leave soon and we haven't really seen much of the city.

"It's such a nice day." I said awkwardly hoping to break the silence.

"You're saying the day is nice, i'm saying my view is gorgeous." He smirked tapping my nose.

"That was awfully cheesy." I laughed throwing my head back.

"But it got you to laugh so it was worth it." I smiled until my eyes landed on the building. That club. Memories of last night flooded my head. Cheating. The drinking. Jail. Hurting Harry.

"I- we can't go down this way." I said my voice cracking.

"What why." He asked. There were a few clubs in this area so he didn't know that this specific one had been the one where the past event had taken place.

"I just- I cant." I said with a tear running down my face following with many more.

"Hey don't cry. Why can't we go down here?" He asked searching the surroundings and he stopped staring at it. Realization hit his face. "Oh."

"I just. I feel so awful and I don't understand how we are even still a thing."

"Shae! I said stop. Stop bringing yourself back to last night its over, its the past. We are fine. I dont know how we are still together, we're just different, unlike the others, and this little incident cant change us."

"Im trying. Im really trying to forget about it Harry. But I just feel so bad. I hate hurting you."

"And I hate seeing you hurt by this, I hate seeing self hatred, regret, and pain in you for this mistake that didnt change anything between us. Now, promise me you will stop bringing it up no matter how much you want to. Yes I was hurt but im over it. Its okay, we're okay." He lied. He is still hurt.

"I will try really hard." I said wiping the tears from my eyes as he wrapped his arms around me.

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