The Worst Kind Of Love (A Niam Horayne Fanfic)

Chapter 5

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I know I missed yesterday but I was having some writers block. But when I came up with the idea for the chapter Zayn deactivated his twitter and I cried myself to sleep!! I’m sorry but I was just way too upset to think about writing!! So anyway I give you Chapter 5…

Chapter 5  

Niall’s POV

I’ve been in the hospital for nearly 4 weeks now, even though I’ve felt fine for 2 weeks. They want to keep me to make sure I’m “Mentally Stable” and that I won’t cut again. As if I’ll ever try this again. Being in this hospital is torture. It’s boring as hell and the food is horrible. Normally one of the boys would go out and get us takeout but they’re all mad at me for scaring them so they refuse. At least they’ll talk to me now. Liam’s been acting really weird ever since I woke up. It’s like he hates me or something and its tearing me apart. I try to talk to him but when I do he doesn’t really talk and then he gets up and leaves. I asked Harry to talk to him but it didn’t help much. He still seems distant. Harry just told me yesterday that he broke up with Danielle a couple weeks ago while I was still in a coma. I have no idea why they would break up but I think that she dumped him and he’s upset because when I asked him about it he said that it was a “mutual agreement” then he left. Harry went after him those two have been really close recently and I’m not too happy about it. I know Harrys Bi, what if they’re in a relationship. But that makes no sense, Liam’s straight. He was just dating Danielle a month ago. You can’t just turn gay in a month, well maybe you can. Maybe he turned gay for me maybe he loves me. Gah, I need to stop thinking like this and just accept that he’ll never love me back. “Harry, can I talk to you outside for a second” I heard Liam say from across the room. “Yah Li of course” Harry said and with that they waked out the door together, Liam looking concerned and Harry looking confused. They shut the door on their way out and I saw them start to walk down the corridor.

Liam’s POV

As me and Harry walked down the corridor I was mentally freaking out. I was going to tell harry about Niall. I hope he’ll accept me, I mean I know he’s Bi he told us all when we were first formed. And I know he has a small crush on Louis. He let that one slip when he was drunk one time, but only Niall and I know. By now we’d reached the doors of the hospital as the doors open me and Harry were hit with a blast of cold evening air. He turned slightly so he was facing me “Li what did you want to talk about” he said. I thought about how to say this, it not like I could just say I’m gay and in love with Niall. That might not go over well. I started “If I tell you this you have to promise that you won’t tell anyone until I’m ready to.” I said. Harry simply nodded. I took this as a good sign and continued, “Okay there’s no way to say this without things getting really awkward so I’m just going to say it.” I paused for a second before continuing, “Ithinki’mgay” I mumbled as fast as I could. God this was difficult. “Li speak up its okay, I promise I won’t judge you.” Harry said, that made me feel a little better. “I think I’m gay” I said more clearly looking at my feet like they were the most interesting thing on earth. Harry opened his mouth to speak then closed it. Tears started forming in my eyes, he didn’t accept me. “I knew this wouldn’t go well, I knew you wouldn’t accept me. I’m a freak.” I said tears now pouring from eyes. I heard Harry start to speak, “Li, please calm down. I’m just a little shocked you know. It’s not every day one of your best friends comes out to you.” He said. “Well there’s a little more” I said looking up to meet his eyes. I continued slowly “I’m kind of in love with Niall” I finished. Harry looked at me shocked “Okay just give me a second to process this.” I stood and waited for him to speak again and when he did he said “Okay first calm down, I accept you and I’m sure everyone else will to when you’re ready to tell them. Second how long have you been gay?” he asked. I answered “I think it was the first day in the hospital when Niall woke up and he said my name. I fell hard and I haven’t stopped thinking about him since.” I said. Harry just smiled “Doesn’t it feel good knowing that someone else knows” he said. I thought about it, it did really feel good that he knew. “Yah, it does really feel good” I said aloud. “Good” he said and with that we started walking back to the hospital.

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