My Aquaman (a.u)

Chapter 25

I stare down at the display and I feel like my body will collapse as the two lines show at the display, as clear as it can get. I guess my luck had to end somewhere.

What is Arthur going to say about this? I know he told me that he would stand by me whatever the outcome would be, but what if he changes his mind? Warm tears start rolling down my cheeks and as I look up at myself in the mirror, I can see my eyes were already bloodshot.

The letter from Gotham University popped into my mind and I decided to save the envelope and the other test for tomorrow. Maybe it was something wrong with the test? Maybe I weren't pregnant after all and tomorrow I would get the result once and for all. 

But what if the test was telling the truth and I was pregnant after all? Somehow my subconscious was telling me that I indeed, was pregnant.

I kept staring at the test and wiping my eyes as the tears fall silently from my eyes. Maybe I should keep this test hidden from Arthur until I knew for sure if it was true? I could hide the test in my bag and pretend that everything was just fine. Looking up at the mirror I tried to put a smile on my face while the tears kept coming.

I knew this wasn't so bad, but I was more scared of how Arthur would react and if he would walk away from me now because this was probably happening. My heart couldn't handle him leaving me again, and what would happen if I had to move in at my father's house again? With Alex under the same roof and me pregnant with Arthur's child? The though of that sends a shiver down my spine and let the thought go for now.

With my eyes still on the test I walk into the other room to go and hide it in my bag. The tears had dried out and my eyes were hurting.

"What are you doing?" Arthur asks and I jump, loosing the test onto the floor. Well, there goes my plan on hiding it. I bend down and pick up the test quickly before hiding it behind my back. "What's that?" He continues and steps closer to me. His eyes are searching my face and they fill with worry when he notices my bloodshot eyes and stained cheeks. "Nothing, I..." I begin before he closes the gap between us and his cold hands cup my warm cheeks. My eyes close and I sigh while enjoying his touch, like it will be the last time I will ever feel his touch again.

"What's wrong?" he says as I open my eyes again and stare into his beautiful, bright eyes. I pull my face from his grip and put my hand out in front of us. "Seems like I'm stuck here" I say and watch him grab the test from my hand. "What does the lines mean?" His eyes moves from the test to me and I give him a small smile. "That I am...I am..." My mouth won't finish the sentence because of what might happen if I do. "Pregnant?" I give him a simple nod as an answer.

I watch as his face falls and wait for him to pull away from me, asking me to leave. "Arthur? Say something?" My voice is small and my eyes wants to tear up, but I have no more tears to cry.

"I have ruined your life" He says and I can see that he is blaming himself for this. "No you haven't. Arthur, please, don't blame yourself for this" I take a step toward him and reach over to touch his arm, but he jerks away. My heart breaks as he does and my feet nearly buckle under me.

"What do you think will happen, huh? I'm already an outcast of both land and sea. What do you think this child will be?" He speaks after a few minutes of silence. He pulls his fingers through his hair and start shaking his head. "And what about your future? I have ruined your plans on getting away from here" he starts pacing around the room and I try to pull myself together.

I sort of knew he would do this. He blamed himself after finding out that I bought the tests, though I was as reckless as he was. I let my passion and love for him control my mind. He clearly did the same and now he blames himself for the consequence.

"You haven't ruined my life Arthur. Maybe this was meant to happen? Please stop saying that you have ruined my future. I love you, and if this is my future then I am happy, cause I get to spend every second of it with you. I don't care if we both are outcasts, I will love this baby unconditionally equally as much as I love you" my mouth is dry, making my voice crack.

His eyes meets mine again, before they travel down to my stomach where I had placed my hands while speaking. He stares for a while before he looks away and sighs.

I step toward him and he doesn't try to get away from me. He looks out into space beside me as I close the distance to him and grab his hand. He lets me and I put his palm up to my cheek. He still doesn't meet my eyes as I do and place a kiss on his wrist. 

"You are everything to me" I say and look up at him, wanting him to look back at me. "Arthur, please, I love you". He lift his gaze and finally meets my eyes. I give him a smile and he sighs before he cups my other cheek. He places his forehead towards mine and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. 

"I love you, too" He says and his thumb brushes gently over my bottom lip. I cover his mouth with his earning a gasp from him. One of his hands moves to the back of my neck as I grab the fabric of his shirt, not letting him go again.