My Aquaman (a.u)

Chapter 18

I told Palina everything and she comforted me with some ice cream even though it was the beginning of February.

She had also asked me to go home and sleep because she could notice that I hadn't slept well for a while. I agreed and she gave me some dinner to take home for tonight.

I walked home and saw that my dad was back because of his boots, standing lined outside the door. A smile appeared on my face and I walked inside. "Dad? You here?" I called out when I heard a woman laughing in the kitchen.

I walked into the kitchen and interrupted a romantic little moment between my dad and the woman I bought my tests from. The quickly broke apart from each other and I walked over to the fridge to put the food from the pub in there so I could heat it up later.

"Pumpkin? What did you do to your hair?" He asks and walk the few steps over to hug me. "I decided to cut it" I answer shortly and we break apart. "It looks good" he continues like every dad would, with a compliment. "Thanks" I say and start walking towards the hallway again, but turn back towards them in the doorway. "I'm going to bed, I'm not feeling so good" I say and continue towards the stairs.

Why was she the first person my dad was seeing as he got home. Why didn't he come to the pub like he always did after he had been out at sea? I think it was good that he didn't drink as much as he used to, but why was she the one who had changed him?

I ended up laying in bed staring at the roof, just thinking about how I was going to survive the next weeks if the same episode that happened today, would happen every time I saw him. I knew I had to be tough, but it was hard seeing someone you trusted with everything, didn't wanted to even touch you.

The exhaustion got the best of me and I fell asleep. I thought about how I was going to be the better man and confront him about how I was feeling about this. How I felt like I was to blame when we both caused this to happen. I had to wait a few weeks to find out if I were pregnant, but I wanted to confront him before that.

In my dream I was back at the cave, under water, trying to kill myself. Arthur's face popped up and told me that he loved me, but then it changed suddenly and he was walking away from me.

I wake up calling his name and knew I had to do something about it. I rubbed my eyes and looked over at the nightstand and saw that it was 1 am and it was dark outside.

My face looked so tired in the mirror and I could now see the dark bags under my eyes. My light skin probably made them look even worse. I combed through my hair and pulled it up in a ponytail before I walked into my room again to change into something else before I headed towards Arthur's place.

I walked back and forth a few times before I manned up and approached his house. The lights was still on and I took a quick look in one of the windows where I saw him sitting in the chair holding something in his hand, up in front of his face.

I sighed and walked the few steps back towards the door before I knocked. A sudden panic came over me when I realized that I didn't know how I was going to start this talk. The door suddenly swung open and he stood there, looking down at me. I could now see what he had been holding in his hand. It was one of my t-shirts and I tried keeping a small grin back before I looked up and into his eyes. He really was thinking about me.

"What do you want Elena?" He asks and I realized how I missed his raspy voice. "Why am I feeling like I am to blame for this?" I yell at him and have a hard time keeping the tears from coming. "Nothing is your fault" he replies and I feel a tear making its way down my cheek. "Then why are closing up on me? It is tearing me apart" I tell him as the tears are streaming down my cheeks now.

He doesn't speak back, just stand there and look at me. "Aren't you going to say anything?" I ask and his eyes drops to the ground.

"I can't do this anymore" I suddenly say, after standing there for wat felt like forever and wipe my eyes before I turn around to get away from here. I leave him standing in the doorway as I rush away from the scene.

I hadn't walked further than a few meters when he grabs my arm and turn me around. His lips lock with mine, and I feel like my body was giving in. He presses me towards his body with his hand on my lower back.

"I'm sorry"