I wasn't going to write a chapter today but I have my first 100 view 😍😍 I know it doesn't mean anything but I'm still so happy for that so enjoy 3rd chapter ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for reading ❤️❤️
Y/N POV
I was in his arms and it was so cozy and pleasant being there watch him sleeping peacefully but still holding me tight,my face was in his neck and his scent god his scent is something else, it's mesmerizing, i get drunk by his scent and I adore him. I never wanted to get up but I thought I would help Karen and got up, take a shower get dressed and went downstairs ⬇️
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I was still sleepy even though i took a shower, Karen was cooking dinner, she smiled at me warmly "Sweetheart want some coffee?" "Thanks, i will have tea,but I'll make it, it's okay,thank you" i said with sleepy smile "Oh common,you my dear take a seat and I'll make you tea" "Oh thank you Mrs.Mendes and can I please have a lemon too?" "Of course and stop thanking me in every minute,and don't call me Mrs.Mendes it's make me feel old,just Karen please!" "Okay Karen" i said with wide smile She winked and started to make tea, she got a croissants,two cups of tea,lemon and fluffy blankets "Let's go in backyard and have tea in the air" She told me very friendly "Yeah i would love to" We sat at small table near the pool and enjoyed the day "Y/N, I wanted to talk" she said friendly but she haven't called me by name yet and it was strange, I didn't like it cus I felt like something bad was coming "Sure" I smiled trying not to look nervous too much "You know today's dinner won't be just family dinner, there will be uncle John and aunt Olivia and..." She said quite, not wanted to finish the sentence "Yes i know there will be Rebecca too, Shawn told me" i said with shyness and I don't know why but it made me so sad even though i was trying to hide it Karen noticed, suddenly my eyes fill with tears and i looked away. "Honey it doesn't mean anything, Shawn loves you" she said while touching my cheek,trying to comfort me,I looked at her with smile and watery eyes "Karen, I apologize, I really don't want to disrespect or something but do you mind if i smoke?" I said quietly, i know it's not criminal or something but still never wanted to smoke with Shawns family, she smiled,then chuckled and nod head "Mh do i look like a grandma or what?(she laughed) of course you can smoke and you don't need to ask me that, actually can i get one?" She said and I breathe out "Umm of course" i said surprised, we light up cigarettes and sadness fill me up again "Karen I'm scared, i never thought I would be like that but I'm scared of losing him,it's like i know he doesn't love her anymore but she was the first for him and it means a lot, i know that because Shawn is the first for me, my first love and I don't think I can not-love him ever, and i was thinking what if Shawn and i break up and i will have someone new and then suddenly meet Shawn, what I would do? I don't know. I would never cheat on my boyfriend but probably break up with him for Shawn. Because it's.." my tears now was coming down on my cheeks and breathe was hard already, i was crying,as much time was spending,after Shawn told me,as much fear was filling me,Karen pulled me into hug "Hey,look at me dear,to be honest he never loved her,i have never seen him watching her with those eyes he's watching you,i have never heard him talking about her especially without asking and past 5 months every time we were talking you were always the subject he just never stops talking about you,he has never hold her hand and now he's not letting you go,I didn't meant to but I accidentally came in your room while you were sleeping and when i saw you it was amazing,Shawn always hated sleeping with someone and when he slept with Rebecca they were on different sides and their backs was facing,every time but you? He's holding you even while during sleep so tightly like he's scared of losing you, Honey trust me i know my son and i can promise he loves you and you should trust him." Okay now i was crying harder but with kind of happiness Karen saw us for few hours and she already can talk about us like that.Her words make me smile and I fall in love with Shawn even more. I hugged her and felt like she was my mom she felt like home and i loved this moment.
