Shawn Mendes Imagines(oneshots)

Jealous 2

Here's the second part,enjoy💛

We fall asleep in each others arms, I needed this so much, i needed him this close to me, i needed sleep on his chest where i feel his heartbeat,i love kissing his bare chest while sleeping it's like a habit, i love the way how secured i feel in his arms,like nothing bad will ever happen to us.
I slowly opened my eyes,I'm still in his arms,he's holding me really tight with his lips pressed on my forehead, I looked up at him and wow he's masterpiece, i love his messy curls on his pure faces, I'm enjoying moment but my pager started ringing so loud and I don't know where the hell this shit is to shut it, Shawn immediately opened eyes and grabbed me for a moment like he's trying to save me then he looked down on me with confused and scared look
"Baby it's okay,we're fine,just stupid pager" i said kind of guilty. He quickly got up and turned off pager then came back and pulled me into his chest again,i kissed his bare chest million times and he hugged me tightly,i looked up and carefully touched his cheek,scar,curls and watching him in eyes, then he closed his eyes and enjoyed my touch,I smiled at his satisfied face
"Shawn" I whispered
"Mhh" with still closed eyes
"I have to get up" i said like didn't wanted him to hear me
"Noo" he said like a child and opened eyes
"Babe they need me"
"No i need you more"
"Few more days and then I'm all yours as much time as you want,i promise"
"I want you 24/7" he said and I laughed
"What?" He asked seriously
"Nothing just you would get bored of me if we were together 24/7" i said and his face turned red from anger,he flipped us over and he was on top of me like the wild lion when he caches his meal and tbh i got little scared
"It's lie! Fucking lie!" He yelled
"Okay" i said quietly
"No you don't believe that! You think I would ever get bored of you!"
"No it's just normal to get bored,watching the same person all day" i tried to fix what i said but he attacked my neck very roughly and it was more painful then pleasurable, I didn't say anything hope he will stop soon but he didn't
"Shawn" I tried to stop him but he didn't pay attention on me
"Shawn" I yelled and he grabbed my hand over my head and locked me I couldn't recognize him,he wasn't look like himself and i was really scared
"Shawn what the hell, Shawn stop" i was almost crying while he was sucking and biting on my skin and it was really painful especially when he had hold my wrists so hard. I was trying to get him off of me but he's too strong, i was kicking my legs but he never reacted
"You are fucking mine" he grabbed my throat roughly and looking in my eyes,choking me,i was shaking,couldn't breathe it was so painful
"Shawn you're hurting me" I start crying and whispered between my last breathes,he freezes,he back off and tears fill his eyes, quickly got up from the bed
"Wh-what, what happened" he asked with tears knowing he did something wrong
"You, you don't remember?"
"I don't know i just,it's, I don't know what is happening" he was scared
"What's the last thing you remember Shawn"
"I was, we were cuddling and you were laughing"
"Then?"
"Then I felt cold and I don't know what happened after"
"Shawn" i said and got up trying get to close with him but I stopped
"Tell me"
"It's okay Shawn" trying to comfort him, he started crying and clenched his fist,came closer to me and fell on knees,I'm touching his arms while he's crying and he pulled me into hug,first it was okay but then i got really uncomfortable, fuck, I'm afraid of him! I'm afraid of my own boyfriend! I got up with fear and get back from him
"Y/N?"
"Mhh shawn?"
"Are you scared?"
"What? No of course not"
"Please tell me what I did"
"You, umm you were locking my hands and sucking and biting my skin and you,you were chocking me, Shawn you were so rough and i was telling you to stop but it was like you didn't heard me" his face changed he felt so guilty,embarrassed,angry,hurt every emotion was on his face and he came to me really fast and I jumped,he was going to hug me and he stopped,step back and whispered
"I'm sorry,I'm so sorry,I didn't know what i was doing"
"Hey it's okay Shawn I'm sorry for that reaction just I'm still in shock,Hey it's not your fault" i got closer to him and he fell on his knees hugging my waist and crying
"I'm sorry,I'm sorry" he's repeating it over and over again
"Shhh it's okay Shawn it's okay"
"Can we sleep? Please"
"Sure Shawn,Common"
We got in bed and he hugged me I'm in his arms and every time I close my eyes i feel like he's choking me, i just can't I'm not moving or something but i just can't close my eyes,and my heart beats so fast I'm terrified right now,my eyes filled with tears,after like 20 minutes Shawn moved and i got scared even more
"Why aren't you sleeping?"
"Umm i was, i just woke up" I said with fake smile
"Y/N?" He said with worried
He got up and looked at me, touched my neck, trailing on the mark he left when he tried to choke me, tears escape from his eyes,he got up and started get dressed
"What are you doing?" I said nervously
"I'm leaving"
"What why? No please it's not your fault"
"I almost choked you! I could kill you!" He said angrily
"No you, you just didn't know" I screamed as tears were coming down on cheeks
"What if i do that again? And this time I won't stop?"
"It will not happen!"
"You don't know that! You couldn't sleep with me because you are scared of me, before that no matter where were we you could sleep in my arms,even if we were in jungle, because you felt safe with me and now I'm the monster you're scared of" he said while crying and with anger,then he started to walk to the door
"Nononooo no you can't no please don't,don't leave, please Shawn don't leave me" i fell on my knees holding head in my hands and crying, he came closer, kissed me on forehead and left.

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