the morning was like any other
i woke up
i got dressed
i ate breakfast
my mum said she loved me as i ran out
the door
but i said nothing
•••
school was the same
i could hear the whispers
i was like a mystery
no one had gotten close enough to know
what i was really like
and that was just how things were
•••
while people chatted with their friends, i knew what i was missing
they had someone to talk to,
someone to laugh with,
someone to love
and
i
didn't
•••
i knew that i should change
; that i should face my fears
but i couldn't.
i couldn't.
i wouldn't.
•••
hallways faded into one as i walked to my class, stares following my steps
left
right
left
right
i got to the door and the teacher let me in early
, they didn't know what was wrong with me
, but my mum had made them care.
•••
class started and people streamed in
their voices
blurring
together
the teacher stood at the front, joined by a boy i didn't know
it's not like i knew anyone anyway
she smiled brightly and said
"this is phil lester."
a boy with the same name as my fear
i looked into his eyes and my heart skipped eight beats
i loved him, i hated him
that beautiful,
terrifying,
boy.
so here's the first chapter, the writing style is really weird, and if you don't like it i can change it, but i thought is was kinda cool. hope you enjoyed :)
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philophobia // P.L x D.H
Romancephilophobia// phil•o•pho•bi•a (n.) a fear of love, falling in love ~~~~~~~ Dan is afraid of love. He always has been, he always will be. Or at least that's what he thinks. Then he meets Phil. A gorgeous boy with the same name of the very fear keepi...
