Poems I Wrote

How Did I Not See?

There were some many signs, clues, factors leading up to this.

How could I not see it?

I feel so foolish, in that my own hopes and fantasies distracted me so much from reality.

It wasn't supposed to be like this.

This isn't how I planned it.

It was picture perfect until reality came along.

I had hopes of happiness and finally having my life together.

What came instead will change my life forever.

Most likely NOT for the better.

How?

All I can think is how?

And why?

How and why did things take a turn for the worst?

And how did I manage to overlook it.

I should have known.

I should have noticed.

I should have put the clues together.

Pieced up the puzzle.

You were ready to leave me.

I thought we would keep on going on forever.

Die of old age when the time came.

Make so many more memories of you and me.

I keep thinking if I wish to speak to you I will get an answer.

I should realize that will never happen.

I just can't accept it.

It's too much to handle.

I need you now more than ever.

Why did you have to leave me?

I love you.

I'm sorry I didn't say it enough before.

I love you.

I love you.

I. Love. You.

I.

Love.

You.

I love you.

I really, really love you.

Love me?