I never wanted this much.
I didn't want feelings of
a good friendship become more.
I didn't want this.
I didn't want to fall in love
after falling into my knees
and breaking my heart.
I didn't want to feel
a million dreams of love
floating around in my heart
and around my head.
I didn't want
to need you.
I didn't want to feel
wanted again.
I didn't want to feel like
everyday was better
than the last.
I don't want to lose you.
I don't want to feel
like I did when I was without
your love.
I don't want to waste hopeless
nights, praying you could
ever love me too.
I don't want to
sacrifice music because of you.
I don't want to move on
with someone who is
going to be better for me.
I want you,
should you want me or not.
I did waste so much time.
I did watch you leave
me when you said you
never would.
I did the best I could
to make you stay.
I did fall in love with you
because of who you were.
I did know
about everything
you have done.
I did know about your mistakes.
And I did stay.
I did my best
to stay strong.
I did what I could to not cry.
I didn't tell you
what I should have.
I didn't hold you.
I didn't date you.
I didn't know that side of you,
and we both know I didn't.
I didn't hurt you.
I didn't want to fall in love.
Yet here we are.
