My little brother

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Yeolhyun's pov

Why did he say it like that? Is it that bad?

"I-I... I can't face him... He hates me" I say stumbling to the floor, his voice scared the life out of me. All confidence is out the door.

Baekhee runs to me in a state of panic helping me sit on the bed. She is so kind.

"Why are you becoming so pale? What did Chanyeol say?" She asked with concern.

I shook my head forcing a smile. "It is fine, I can handle it. I am used to this."

She hits my head, "am I Peaches? No, I am Byun Baekhee, you will tell me and not hide your worries like this! Now say what is troubling you" she strokes my hair.

"Can you tell me what happened last night? I need to know if I hurt you... Please" I beg.

I need to know what I did so I can defend her and keep her trouble free. Though I admire she wants to be the women of my life and take responsibility as well. You are perfect in my eyes, your imperfections add to your perfection and make-up can only add to your beautiful because yours is natural.

"Well Yeollie, what do I get in return?"

"You get my kisses even in public, if you want it I will show you my affection everywhere and loyalty is always to brother, but you are an addition to that. However, you must understand if he needs me I will disappear for him and you can't accept me without knowing he may come before you. Can you still love me?"

"Even my brother comes before you, silly yours is like a parent. I get you and now I will spill the tea." She giggles sitting on my lap.

Thank you for sending me an angel.

"Well after kissing so passionately you picked me up and took me to a hotel. Then we watched movies, drank a bit and watched different moves that led us to bed, we didn't do it but we not far from it. Either way afterwards you suggested we sleep, so we did and now we're awake. Mr Park, let me say you were very erected last night and that you are a king. Congratulations."

All I could do is blush, we are the same age, but she knows more than me and I'm supposed to be a dude.

However, to be fair Chanyeol has never let me drink or even be near alcohol, whereas Baekhyun was more laid back and allowed his sister once she became legal. Yet Chanyeol still treated me like a kid, while they had alcohol I was drinking milk.

"How do you feel now?"

"I feel your brother will tease me, but mine will beat me and lock me away from the world for several months. I feel he will recklessly hurt me and I won't fight back."

"Why is that? If he abuses you, you have rights to fight back, like even I scold Baekhyun and he is older than me."

I shook my head, sweetheart you don't know who Chanyeol is to me. He is more than a brother, he treated me like an animal for two years because I was too weak after our mother left us. Home felt like the military service and there even times he told me to refer to him as Master Park only and that was scary.

Like I just knew, me calling him Master meant it was all over. He whips you, he beats you and you are always he pain. He locks you in for days with no food, he teaches you and manipulates you. That why Baekhyun sends weird looks to Chanyeol because he as caught him 'teaching me' and that just meant abuse.

I've forgiven him now because... Well I'm still soft, that is my flaw I can't be angry at you forever, there's no point to hatred. It only ruins you.

"Your brother knows why, I think it should stay a man's secret. You understand, right? We can't all be as fearless as you to our brothers?" I laugh awkwardly.

Will she take the bait and drop this damned topic.

"I guess."

"Okay then, we'll go now if you're ready to."

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I wish father had given me strength to tell Chanyeol to stop. I don't want to be violently hurt to the point I lose abilities to walk because my legs were broken. I know he means well, but should I really allow him to do this to me?

It doesn't matter that I am eighteen, but in general should he be allowed to inflict me with so much pain? Even our farther never punished us like this, so how did he even learn this?

Now I'm curious, Chanyeol who showed you how to beat fear into people? How do you make me not angry at you after beating me so hard? Why do I wake up thinking you did the right thing? Did you drug me then too? Was the dose heavier?

Chanyeol... Did you ever love me like you said?

I feel like they were all lies, I feel like you were always tricking me and now even my heart hurts.

I can feel my tears forming. Chanyeol, you always made me cry and I know I'll never be anything compared to you.

You confuse me.

You hide as much as me yet you are always on my case. Do I even know you?

"Have you ever loved me!? Chanyeol, Chanyeol! Have you ever cared about me? Do I matter to you?"

"Yeolhyunnie, your crying? Did you have a nightmare? Chanyeol does love you and he has always cared. Stop being paranoid, it's not healthy."

I'm losing myself... Channie please fix me, use your manipulative words to put my mind at ease.

Just save me, before I go mad.

End of Yeolhyun's pov