My Fucked Up Life.

I love you

I don't know what's with you that got me so intrigued. Usually I don't get too soft to people that I've just met, whether it's on the internet or in person, and meeting you was the most life changing thing; not only did it change my perspective in life it also gave me a reason on why I should give life another chance. I don't know when it started but all I know is that I developed some feelings for you and it scares me because what if you don't like me like that? I'm scared of being rejected, I'm so tired of getting rejected all the time.. am I not enough? What should I do for you to like me back?

These months you've been so distant and I don't know what to do, all I can do is to spam you with messages and get worried.. I'm helpless! If I have the power to go there then I would, I would be by your side, taking care of you, showering you with my love. You are the most precious thing that ever happened to me. If only I have the guts to confess my immense feelings for you.. You're so busy these days and I understand because you have a valid reason and that is your study. But.. taking a 1 minute break and updating me wouldn't hurt right? Fuck! I'm being selfish again.. Sorry. Forgive me. I just want to know if you're ok! Because the fact that you've been hurting yourself again is scaring me!! I don't know what to do! How can I possibly help you through this fucking screen between us?!

Just please.. hold onto me. Don't let go of me.