Why Can't It be Easier

The new year.

Well, its official it's a new year! That just means another year where I deny how I feel about my best friend. My best friend also just so happens to be the quarterback for the football team and is really popular. I, on the other hand, am not. I am his invisible friend. Who do I just go up to him and say hey so here is the thing... I'm in love with you, I want us to be together. I know he doesn't see me that way so I'm better off not saying anything and just suffering. I'm not viewed in his social class, its like in the movies where he is the popular one and I'm the nerd/geek, in those movies, they end up together, that is not going to happen to me. I have to stop living this fairytale-like I did for all of 2018. I wish I could the image of us living happily ever after out of my head where we are happily married and enjoying life to the fullest.