Why Can't It be Easier

January 2nd

Well, it is now day two of the new year... I don't know for sure how I'm liking it. I asked my best friend a question and I was surprised at his response. (The one I'm in love with.) I asked him if he could have two wishes what would they be. He said, "I'm not sure." Him of all people I thought would have a million wishes. Then again it doesn't surprise me since he can never tell me what he wants. I haven't seen him since December 21st when I gave him his Christmas present. I still am denying how I feel I wish I wouldn't but it's not as easy as it is in the movies where you walk up to the person you are in love with or have a crush on and say "hey I really like you" or "hey I'm completely in love with you. Oh, how I wish it was that easy. He knows that I love him but he only knows that I love him like a friend, not that fact that I'm in love with him. Maybe when I see him on Tuesday I will tell him how I feel. I will probably chicken out so maybe on my birthday in February, better yet why not his birthday... Why does it have to be so complicated?