hurt | jikook

五十五

I opened my eyes and saw the plain white ceiling.

Another attack.

I closed my eyes again and I felt my tears slowly cascading down my temples as thoughts started to cloud my mind again.

" Hyung? " A voice called out making me instantly open my eyes.

" What do you want Jungkook? " I said, voice void of any emotion.

" I-I just wanted to ask if you are feeling any better, I-I'm just worried about you hyung. " Jungkook said, voice quivering as if he is a little boy that just got scolded.

" Worried? Funny, before this you didn't even gave a shit so why bother now Jungkook? " I said as I closed my eyes again.

" I-I'm just really concerned about you hyung, w-we all are worried about your well being. " He continued.

" All of you cares? That must be a fucking joke Jungkook, I see no care right now coming from anyone of you, and even if you do care. I don't care, so shove those 'care' you were saying up your fucking assholes. "

I know that came off harsh but I badly needed to be alone right now, I prefer being alone at this moment rather than having people comfort and remind me how shitty I feel and think about myself.

" O-okay. I'll be o-outside with the others, just shout or anything if you n-need something. " Jungkook finally said before going out of the door.

I sighed. I put up my palms into my face as I felt the tears spilling out again.

I just cried, until to the point where my consciousness left me again without me even noticing it.