hurt | jikook

五十九

In just 10 mins they arrived at the hospital and they immediately saw their manager in front of the ER crying.

" Hyung? Why are you crying? " Jin hyung asked our manager.

" He lost blood a lot of blood again and the doctors are trying hard to fix him again. "

" A lot of blood? "  Hoseok hyung asked, obviously confused.

" He slit his wrists again, his thighs and his neck with the use of broken pieces of a glass vase. " Manager explained, tears flowing down his face.

We stood there with our mouths agape, his thighs and neck?

I felt guilt and sadness creeping upon me as I remembered the times where I talked bad about him. The times where I tried to convince myself I don't like him. The times where me and the members rejected him.

I felt guilt for not being there when he is at his lowest.

After hearing that, we sat down along with the manager, the atmosphere silent yet you can feel the grief in it.

30 mins passed and for me, it felt like eternity, a doctor then came out of the ER and walked over to us.

" Are you related to the patient Park Jimin? " The doctor asked.

" Y-yes. How is he doc? " Jin hyung asked.

" He... " The doctor hesitated to answer.

We all looked at him as we waited for his words.

" He lost a lot of blood and the cuts were deep enough to the point he cut off a lot of major veins. " He continued.

" I'm sorry but we lost him. We tried our best to quickly patch him up but it seems his wish this time was granted. " The doctor finally finished.

After that, I felt nothing but the grief, sadness, anger and pity for myself.

I've lost the one I liked.

No, I've lost the one I love.

I've lost him before I could even find him.

I've failed to let him know he is loved. He is important.

I've failed to save him from the demons that lingers in his mind.

I've failed to be the comfort for him whenever he cries.

I've failed in saving Park Jimin, the one I love.