I Fell In Love With A Sadist (GXG)

I've got the blue's

A/n
Another chapter since i wanna make it up to you guys. and idk when im gonna be free again ,since a few months from now ,im gonna graduate for college and this chapter is gonna start getting serious so prepare for  bumpy ride and as always im nervous about this chapter 😄

ALEX'S POV

I can feel the loud thumping of my heart ,and just by looking at her, i knew im not gonna survive if she left me a second time.

She let out a tiny snore before rolling into the sheets making her a burrito. I hold a laugh before laying with her and hugging her burrito form and kissed her forehead. And for the first time in my life i haven't slept with someone who i hadn't touched yet. And guess shes an exception since i wont be able to look at another girl again than how i look at Georgina.

Still staring at her face i frowned. Suddenly my chest felt tighter as i struggle to breathe, i closed my eyes and tried to control my breathing remembering my doctor to do so. I looked at Georgina again and bit my lip to suppress a rugged breath.

Even if there was a smallest chance she did want me.

She's too innocent and im still a complete mess.  clawing my chest a tear escape my eye. I ran to the comfort room and locked the door.

My fear...

My pain.

My family's expectations

My fathers wrath

How damage i am

How pathetic it is.

Her knowing it.

Her leaving me again..

I don't want to ruin her with my emotional bullshit, it wouldn't be fair. The sooner she get away from me the better. But i already tried that and i failed.

Miserably....

Looking at the mirror, seeing the face she's been looking at since she came here. How could she look at this pathetic face over and over, every single damn day. And can still smile and look at me with that innocent adoration.

I splash water on my face still trying to control my rugged breathing.

"But daddy it's too hard!!" A little girl cried as she tried to balance 5 books on each hand as an older man holding a long stick wack her legs when it starts to wobble.

"Being hard when you fail to ace your scores isn't enough Alexandra!!. I told you to be number one!!. How would the others say that a daughter of the knight family isn't an achiver!! " He scolded her as tears ran through her face.

" Im sorry daddy i wont do it again ill try to study hard im sorry !!im sorry please stop" 

" Trying isn't enough Alexandra. Your the eldest. Be an excellent example to your siblings." He said coldly as he wack her arm when it attempted to slip again.

She bit her lip and adjusted her hands, if she cry harder he'll never stop and she's gonna be in trouble if her mother finds out daddy is lecturing her again.

" My children isn't weak, doesn't cry and learn to obey when their told. Your crying Alexandra are you a knight"

A knight doesn't cry she whispered as her face became expressionless and her body stilled. She cant be weak knowing her father wont let it.

" Now study Alexandra. No more games understood" her father said coldy as she nodded.

" Yes father"

"Don't disappoint me again Alexandra i have high expectations from you." he coldly said

" I'll make you proud father"

"  I highly doubt that child, give me proof " he said walking to the door and slam it shut.

Tears ran through my eyes again. Attempting to wipe them i splashed water a few times to refresh my mind.

My emotional bullshit will drive her away, and i might not stop her this time. I took a few step towards the bed where she's peacefully sleeping. Hearing the loud rain i ran a hand to the blanket and i laid as far away from her and curled into a ball.

A few moments later i felt a hand on my shoulder making me tense. It clung on to me and i heard a silent snore. I turn over and saw her peaceful face. I fight the urge to kiss her and just hug her back , close my eyes drifting myself to sleep.

My eyes adjusted from the bright light when i felt a bit heavier than before in the mornings. Groaning i freed my hand when she started yawning on top of me.

Smirking i nip her neck making her squeal in surprised and roll off me.

I pouted missing her warmth already.

She faced me blushing making chuckle and i hug her more tighter.
" We need to go home.or your sister will worry" i said and she nodded before sitting up.

" Uhm thank you for the time, i had fun alex" she stared at me before innocently kissing my cheek.

Damn it she'll be the death of me. She stared at me smiling with that look of adoration again.
I blushed and looked away.

Im in trouble. In deep trouble, well more like my heart is.

A/n so alex have a scary past and this story will go to a serious turn. Hope you guys enjoyed it comment and tell me what do you think 😁