I Fell In Love With A Sadist (GXG)

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Georgina's POV

I waved at Alex when she got in her car taking of her glasses before winking at me and drove away.

My grin couldn't be wipe out the entire day. Thankfully its already Sunday so i can relax. I tied my hair in a messy bun when i entered my art room. Its been years since I've been here, but I guess nanny took care of most of stuff that i left. I frowned at my beloved things  because i left hurry that day. I sigh deeply before closing the door shrugging the thought. I've decided to give it a shot with her and i should be trusting her.

Its hard to trust her.the saying forgive and forget isn't as easy as it sounds. I have forgiven her already,but forgetting?. I shake my head before examining my brushes and paints.still in mint condition.
My eyes drifted to my old works covered in frame so it's still look new the day i painted them.

I opened the box with rolls of canvas fabric and i pulled a chair and squeeze the colors that caught my eye.

Closing my eyes my brush touched the canvas as i blend the different shades of blue. I imagined the sea. I've always loved the sea. mostly my summer vacation consist of my family going to the beach to go swimming. My sister and i would pretend to be mermaids but mostly I would be gone for hours just diving deep in the sea and i would stay underwater as long as i could.

Hopefully i can go again and this time maybe Alex can come with me.

I would take a risk and my heart would be the price. But then again if its Alex i wont mind.
Walking in a tight rope with her.

It took me almost the whole day to finished my art. I smiled at my work when i made the sea to he background as a dark haired girl walking in the shore with a blond haired one, holding hands.

Gods im in trouble. I've made myself fallen for her more. And i guess there's no turning back.
Its weird and my chest feels tight.

Maybe lovi was right.this is what feels like when your falling for someone and Feelings are complicated and people makes it worst.

I wish i had one before her. So I'd know what to prepare. Remembering the way she looks at me.

No don't be an idiot.i told myself before dipping my brush on the glass, and placing it on the pallette.

Stretching both my hands and cracking my neck and knuckles, i set my work to dry before going to my room to clean up.

My phone beep and my eyes widen when Alex's name appears.

* Hey hows your day*

* It was fine i just finished painting*

* Lucky you, i had to finished paper work at school* insert pouty face here-

I giggled at her childish attitude.

* Better finished it its already Monday tomorrow*

* I know, wish your here tho*

That made me blush, trying my best to not mess up my message.

* Umm I cant even help *

* Nonsense, tho ill pick you up tomorrow and don't keep me waiting.  I gotta go Later ;*

i almost drop my phone while trying hard not to squeal.

My sister barge in my room likes she was the queen of the damn world. And mind you if shes mad shes the queen of sarcasm and bitchiness and I'd hate for anyone to be on her bad side. Bit shes a sweetheart most of the time.

" Now tell me all the juicy bits, what did you two do" she sassily said and plop down on my bed, I sigh and take my  fresh baby blue towel.
" Can't this wait until I'm finished taking a bath" I chuckled and walk to the bathroom.

Taking off my clothes I step butt naked to the shower, closing my eyes I moan as hot water Cascade down my tired body.

I scrub down my body with honey scented body wash with my loofah. And put some shampoo and conditioner before washing one more time and I get out of the shower.

I saw my sister laid on my bed as she flip down on some books that's on my bed.

" Well aren't you gonna sit ". She said after I put on an extra size shirt and shorts.
" Okay okay, so uhm what do you want to hear"

" Duh everything silly, I did a lot of convincing to do yesterday , I deserve to know " she said with a raise brow.

My sister and I are pretty close. And we fight a lot but we don't hold grudges on each other so our fights only last for a minute and were good after a few.

We don't keep secrets at each other too that's why it's good to let out some weight on your chest.

" I won't tell the embarrassing stuff but enough for you to know what's going on"

" Yeah yeah, come on come on, tell me "

" She took me to this beautiful bookshop were we can sit and read for hours, we brought books" I motioned her the bags that's on the table.

" And it began to rain, that's why we went to the nearest hotel to dry and rest" my health isn't that good, that's why I can't be cold or hot, my immune system is pretty weak.

She nodded before touching my forehead,
" And then we slept, uhm we cuddled and she drove me home after " she pouted

" Nothing else?!"

" Of course there's none. What did you expect"

" You know!! Something amazing, like you know!" She made some weird gestures and stuff and I looked at her confused.

" Come on big sis ! It's not like wait-
My eyes widen when I realized what she was about to say. I smack her with my pillow making he laughed loudy.

" Aw big sis, I know you don't have any experience with dating, or with anyone but you can't be that dense" I felt my face heat up before I throw all the pillows my hand could reach.

" How dare you! It doesn't mean I don't have experience, that I need to immediately do it with someone! It's my choice you wee devil!"
We ran around in circles in my room. While she teases me non-stop and I had to ran to her.

" I know ,I know. But I'm rooting for her yah know, I mean she's pretty as hell and she's the school's president" she winked at me before walking out of my room flipping her hair.

I mean come on! Maybe I am too frigid.
I don't really know. If
This is how it feels to like someone then. It's hell confusing and mind wacking.

After a few hours of thinking, well mostly about her.i went downstairs for dinner.

Nanny gave me a sermon about being on time and all those rules at the house. Ugh I guess I am frigid.

The thought of becoming a nun entered my mind when my grandmother mentioned it to me last year.

A/n so guys I had some time to write. So here's another chapter. Comment of what you think cause I'm nervous about this chapter.