In my feelings

Why Did It Have To Be You?

You know what sucks the most?
The feeling of knowing that I can't have you in my life anymore.

The thought of you makes my stomach ache. My heart hurts, I can't breathe.

When I say or hear your name - I yearn for your touch - your attention.

I'm literally going insane. I need to see your face again. I want to hear your comforting voice that use to call out my name.

I want to talk to you. Tell you all the things that's going on with me lately. But I can't.

The worst part is you're suffocating me and you don't even realise it.

Do you ever think about me the way I think about you? Probably not...

Out of all people, I thought it was safe for me to lend you my hand. And that I could trust you. I gave you something valuable; something to hold onto. But you let go.

I told you how I felt but you didn't care. You just shrugged it off like it didn't matter. Did my words even mean anything to you?

You left me here all alone; stranded, leaving me here to pick up the pieces you shattered.

Whoever thought someone like you could excruciate me so much?

I wish you could feel my pain. I want you to hurt as bad as I am hurting.
So at least you'd understand how it feels like to be in my position.

But... I can't. You know why? Because I fucking care about you too much. I guess that's my problem though right?

You say I'm overly dramatic, always overthinking, too sensitive. That I say too much; making things more complicated than it should be.

The truth is... You're right! I'm ONLY like this when it comes to you.

As much as I want you to feel how I feel. To empathize with me. I would rather be hurting than to see you hurt.

Fuck! Why did it have to be you?