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Chapter 7

"Where are we going, Y/N?" Hoseok asked.

"The graveyard. You're going to meet my sister," you said. It sounded creepy, but Hoseok understood what you meant. You both arrived, and you set the bouquet of flowers at the headstone.

"Moon Yuna," he said. "That's a lovely name."

"I helped choose it when I was three, actually," you said. "And if I'm also honest, I didn't want to be a teacher," you also said.

"What do you mean?" he asked.

You gestured for him to sit down at the bench, he did and you sat next to him. "When we were younger, I always aspired to be a pianist. For Yuna, she aspired to be any type of teacher. Mathematics, science, history, arts, piano, anything. On September 28th, she got into a horrible car crash. Damaged everything, and she was ready to die any day or any second. That day, she asked me to fulfill her dream. At the time, I felt as if it was my fault, so I did. I fulfilled her dreams," you said. "The day my career really launched, I made a promise to myself. A promise that I would make sure Yuna's dream fully came true. To not get distracted. To avoid from getting distracted. That included parties, socializing with others, and dating," you said. Hoseok stayed silent, listening to every word you said. 

You poured your heart out to someone you thought you never would. You felt secure inside, and you felt happy. Something you hadn't felt in a while.

"Y/N, I'm so sorry," Hoseok said. "She seemed like a wonderful person, I wish I could've met her."

"You would've liked her. She would've liked you a lot too. She's a lot like my best friends. Crazy, rowdy, yet caring," you said. A few tears slipped your eyes, and you wiped them away.

"After Yuna's death, I took it hard, and that's why I became so dedicated. That's why I can't let my career slip. I'd feel as if I was disappointing her," you said. 

"I understand," Hoseok said. "But I'm sure she's so proud of you Y/N. I'm sure you've accomplished what she's wanted," he said. "The question is, what do you want?"

"I don't know, I've been focusing on what she wanted, to not focus on what I want. I think that's what my friends are also trying to tell me," you said. You sighed.

"I hope you find it, I hope you find what you need in your life to make you happy," Hoseok said.

"Thank you Hoseok. Thank you for listening, thank you for everything," you said.

"I'm glad I helped," Hoseok said, smiling a bit. "Do you want to be alone? I'll just head back then," Hoseok said, awkwardly, shoving his hands into his jean pockets.

"Yeah, I'm going to stay here for a while," you said.

"Stay safe," Hoseok said, protectively.

"I will," you said, flashing a smile.

And at that moment, you felt warm. A tingly feeling of love, the one you felt before. But this time you didn't ignore it. You let it absorb you, and you felt happy. The tingly feeling you once hated, you now loved.

•••

"Y/N, you made it." the soft voice said. Your eyes were closed, but you felt her presence with you. 

"Of course I did, it's September 28th. I always will come here, and spend time with you. It doesn't matter if I made plans, or I'm about to die. I will come here." you said.

"That's good Y/N. That's why I always loved you," Yuna said. She took a pause. "Who was that guy?" she asked.

"Oh, him. He's Hoseok, someone I met," you said.