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Seven

Enough. Maybe this is the word that could explain what I feel or how I feel right now now. I feel like it's too much that I want to give up. All those attentions I'm getting from the media is enough for me to face in one day. They've been throwing all these dirty lies and bad images of me on the social media that I have to admit that those are not really good tabloids. They keep on destroying my image to all the people who's supporting 5SOS and One Direction that sometimes really does hurt my feelings.

Maybe Harry was right. Paparazzi's are selfless jerks that all they have to do in their jobs is to ruin these celebrity life. Maybe this really isn't my life after all if that's the case.

"Jade, you there?"

"Huh?" I was distracted away from my thoughts again that kept on bugging me forever. Luke held my hand in his and looked at me in the eyes with concern.

"What's the matter?" He asked and I sighed. This is the problem about Luke. I feel like he doesn't know anything that is happening to me, and it's not just because I want him to know everything and protect me. It's just that I think he's too blind to see all that was happening inside the social media. Or maybe he does care, he just doesn't show it.

"Nothing." I simply replied.

We are on the tour bus of the boys right now and I was glad that it is much more relaxing than the planes we used to ride to travel country one at a time. I also don't feel terrified now, not like when we are in the airplane, I could feel like I was just really close to the ground.

"I'm just going to grab a drink Luke. I'll be right back." I told Luke.

I stood up from my seat and went to the back of the car because where the drinks are placed. I grabbed a bottle of juice from the refrigerator, taking a big gulp from it.

"I feel so stupid." I heard something being thrown somewhere making a loud thud. I came closer to where the sound of the voice and the thing being thrown is, that's coming from one of the bunk beds.

I heard him curse a lot as I waited for the right time to check who that was, and yes it was clearly a guy.

"I should just forget about her. I was a fool for this shit." He threw something again inside and I start wondering who it was.

And I think he was talking to someone.

"Ah shit. How can I forget about her if she's with us for the tour."

"Uhm... Hello?" I called out for the guy who was speaking on his own, and I saw some movements happening inside the bunk bed which made me start to wonder.

"I-I should probably go. Sorry for disturbing you." I said leaving so quickly.

"Wait!"

I continued to walk away from the bunk bed and ignored the guy who called for me. I heard him following me from my back and then grabbed my arm and turned me around.

So it was Ashton.

His eyes looked at me seriously and I looked back, making our eyes connect. I suddenly felt something in my stomach making me remove my gaze from his.

"I... I-uhh. I was talking to my mom on facetime." He explained. I looked back from his bunk bed and tried to see if he's with someone but I guess he was right.

Why do I suddenly felt mad thinking that Ashton is with a girl when he's not. I'm the only girl in this bus.

"Oh. Sorry for bothering you." I apologized. He's still holding my arm and I got really uncomfortable so I think he noticed it and removed his grasp from me.

Who was he referring to when he was talking to his mom lately?

Why is it that he sounds so mad the way he describes that girl?

"'You with someone?" He asked, running his hands through his hair and knowing that he does that whenever he feels nervous or guilty.

"Yeah. I-I just went to grab a drink. Luke was waiting for me to go back, I guess." I saw him flinched as he heard the sound of Luke's name.

"Are you two good?" I asked since I've noticed that for the past few days that Ashton's been ignoring Luke and that they became very distant from each other.

"Y-yeah." He simply replied, looking at the ground.

"Okay. I should probably go now." I pulled out a smile, trying to wait if he's going to tell me some other things but he just stood there looking at the ground so I turned my heel and left him standing there.

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"But a house gets cold when you cut the heating

Without you to hold I'll be freezing

Can't rely on my heart to beat in

'Cause you take parts of it every evening

Take words out of my mouth just from breathing

Replace with phrases like when you're leaving me.

Should I, should I?

Maybe I'll get drunk again

I'll be drunk again

I'll be drunk again

To feel a little love"

Luke ended the song with one more strung on the guitar and I smiled as he ends it perfectly. Luke and the others have been suggesting a lot of songs lately that's why I was actually forced to listen to them, but I was glad because those songs were really good.

"Okay. You guys should do covers again." I suggested since the four of them were here right now.

"Have you been watching some of our covers that was created for the past few years?" Calum said and I giggled. "Glad you're listening to some of our songs."

"Yeah. Whatever." I ignored the compliment. "I'm sure your fans would love to see you do some covers again."

"Why won't you make your own covers?" Ashton teased, making the other boys say yes and nod as well.

"Stop changing the topic Ashton." I rolled my eyes at him and they all laughed at me.

"We've got a boys night out tomorrow Jade. D'you wanna come?" Michael asked out of nowhere and I looked at Luke to ask him if he knows anything about this.

"I only found out this morning because Niall already told the others."

"I'll pass that one out. Besides, it's a 'boys' night out." I air quoted the word boys.

"Then I guess I should just also stay here with Jade." Luke said.

I shook my head no. "No Luke. You have to join them." I warned him.

"Are you sure?" I nodded and smiled to assure him.

I guess being alone for a day could relax me for a bit.