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Eleven

After what felt like years of hiding from everyone, I finally found the courage to leave the room of where I've been crying my eyes out because I felt guilty about what happened to me and Ashton.

I need something to distract me. I know it may not be so easy but I've got no choice. Ashton really has a point of what he said lately in the bathroom. We can't just ignore each other. Luke is my boyfriend and both of them happens to be in the same band.

I snuck out of the arena that we are in right now because their producers still hasn't let them go home and I don't know why.

"Oh my gosh. You're Jade right?" My head suddenly jerked up to find that someone who said my name. I need to get out of here. The first thing I don't really need to happen right now is to get mobbed by some fans, but I also don't want to see Ashton and everyone right now so I got no choice.

Some person tapped my shoulders behind me and I turned around to see a girl that looks like a 15 years old.

I guess she was the one who called me.

"Erm. Hi." I greeted. Not sure of how I should welcome her.

"You're Harry's cousin, right?" I looked around to see if some people heard her or maybe if the paparazzi's are around but I spotted none so I slowly nodded.

"Please don't scr-" I was about to stop her from making a scene but I was too late. And suddenly, I saw some heads turned to my directions and I guess that's my cue to really leave. I knew this would be a bad idea. Why did I even went here? I should've expected this, I was always afraid of getting mobbed.

People started to scream and run to me which gave me a dead end. Flashes of cameras blinded me and that's when I started feeling dizzy.

"Are you dating Luke or Ash?!"

"Are you cheating on Luke?"

"I love you Jade!"

"Tell Harry I love him!"

"Do you love Ashton?!"

My head is spinning and I keep hearing their shouts. Some are rude comments pointing me about my relationship with Luke or maybe Ashton. I tried to move out of them but they are already pulling and pushing me.

This is déjà vu.

This is the same thing that happened in my dream.

I closed my eyes and tried to wake myself up with all that's happening. Nothing happened and I tried once more and I knew this is reality.

I don't have anyone to call for help and I even left my phone somewhere in the arena.

"Excuse me!" Someone said through the crowd. I can't recognize the voice since everyone is screaming through my ears. The last thing I saw is that everything is turning black and hearing a voice of a guy through the crowd.

I guess I go unconscious.

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"Is she okay?"

"She shouldn't have left. She doesn't like getting too much attention. What more if she gets mobbed?"

I groaned and stirred from my position. I want to sleep! Let me sleep!

"She was mobbed!" I recognized the voice from Ashton and their voice keeps on filling my ears, making me feel the headache once more so I tried to open my eyes but got completely blinded by all the lights.

"Guys. Shut up! She's awake." I tried to adjust to my surroundings for a moment and when I did, I saw nine pairs of eye looking at me like I'm a complete different person.

"What the hell is wrong with you guys?" I said as I rub my eyes out from my sleep.

"Watch your mouth Jade." Harry pointed out and I scowled at him.

"Leave me alone Harry." I'm so pissed off right now and I sure am not always in a good mood after sleep.

"What happened?" I asked since some of them are still looking at me.

"You passed out the moment our security's found you."

"They were looking for you everywhere."

That's when memories from yesterday came flashing back. I suddenly looked at Ashton and he had this worried expression right across his face. I immediately removed my gaze from his and placed my hands on my face, trying to bury the the issue I just made.

"I'm really sorry guys. I completely forgot and I got so distracted." I cried out and Luke automatically went beside me, trying to comfort.

Oh Luke. Why did I got stuck in this situation? Why did I happen to fall in love with you? You deserve someone who would love you the same like you loved me.

"It's fine. The problem is fixed. The management is finding their way to leave the issue." Harry explained.

I heard some murmurs in the room and I found Liam talking in the phone.

"Okay... Got it. I'll inform them now... Thank you." He hang up the phone and walk towards my bed.

"We have to leave in an hour or so. As informed by the driver."

"I'll be up now then." I scramble through the bed, removing the blanket off of me and I realized that I'm connected to some dextrose.

"What's with the dextrose? I just passed out." I asked Harry.

I'm just not fond of being mobbed so I passed out so I was wondering why I still have to be dextrose-d.

"The doctor took some tests on you and found out that you lost some pounds and I thought it was just a mistake and I was wondering why, but Ashton said that he noticed that you haven't been eating for awhile now, that's why you look pale sometimes." I caught a glimpse of Ashton looking at me and I saw that look of concern in his eyes.

I can't believe he could still notice those little things.

"You should eat a lot Jade. I'm serious." Harry pleaded and I nodded.

"I also called Jen to let her know what happened. She's very disappointed at you Jade."

I knew Harry would call my mom. I should've expected this coming. I'm gonna have to call her soon.

The nurse came in right at that moment and asked me if we're leaving, which Liam answered yes so she started doing her job to remove the needles connected to my body.

One of the things I hate are needles.

"Did you guys bring me some clothes?" Harry nodded and Luke took some bag placed beside him and gave it to me, which I returned with a sad smile.

I have got to tell him sooner or later. I can't help but feel sad for him.

This is all my fault.

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