Still Lost || muke au

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Luke's POV

When I wake the next morning, I turn around to see Michael's beautiful face. I couldn't help but smile when I felt butterflies. God why couldn't he like me the way I like him. Just as I was about to look away, which was really hard, he wakes.

"Luke?" he asks, his voice raspy from just waking up. God I could listen to his morning voice forever.

"Yeah Mike?" I say. He opens his eyes, looks at me and says.

"You like what you see?" I blush at his words because he knows I was staring.

"Shut up." I say while hitting his chest.

"Mhm. Well let's get up and go get some breakfast. You gonna tell the boys?" He asks, sitting up and stretching. Shit. I haven't thought about telling the boys. I guess it's now or never to tell them. Maybe I could tell Ash and Calum about my crush,that's more than a crush, on Michael.

"Yeah that sounds good. I think I'm going to talk to them." I say, sitting up and repeating Mikes actions.

"Great! I'll be there to help you." he says while pulling me into a hug.

"Thanks Mike. Lets go." I say jumping off my bed, feeling happier than I ever have in a long time.

When we get downstairs to the kitchen, there's flour everywhere and a flour coved Ashton and Calum.

"What the hell went on in here?" I ask.

"Well um we were trying to make pancakes for you guys but then Calum through flour at me and then one thing led to another and here we are." Ashton says while pointing at Calum. I sigh and simply say.

"Clean this up dicks. I have to talk to you two AFTER you clean this up." They both nod, quickly cleaning the kitchen. Michael and I walked to the living room while they did that.

We turned on the Telly, but shortly after my phone starts to ring. I look at it to see who's calling and it's my father. My father never calls me, that means something's wrong. I get up quickly and rush to the front porch, and answer my phone.

"Dad?" I ask as I answer.

"Luke." he says, sounding like he's been crying.

"Dad what's going on, you never call me." I say getting worried. First because he never calls, second because he was crying.

"Luke your brother, Jack, he was in a terrible car accident and well... Luke the Funerals next Friday." He says sobbing even more. I dropped my phone in shock. My brother is dead? First my mother gets diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, then Jack dies.

"Luke? Luuke? LUKE?!?" I hear my father scream, but I'm unable to move. I'm numb. I soon grab my phone and hang up.

"Luke?" I hear the boys ask behind me. "You okay?"

"He's gone." I say, frozen in my spot.

"Who's gone?"

"Jack, he died in a car accident." I say, the words finally sinking in and I put my head in my hands, sobbing. I feel a hand on my back, then two more added shortly after. Is this how life is supposed to go? Two things of bad news within 24 hours of each other? The itching was back but I did my best to ignore it. I felt a hand under my chin that broke my train of thought, and brought me back to reality.

"Luke? You okay?" Ashton asks me. I laugh. Its not a normal laugh though, its a sarcastic one.

"Am I okay, Ash? Am I FUCKING OKAY? NO IM NOT OKAY I FOUND OUT MY MOTHER HAS STAGE FOUR CANCER AND MY BROTHER DIED. HOW THE HELL WOULD I BE 'okay' HUH? Of course you wouldn't know because NOTHING BAD EVER HAPPENS TO YOU." I scream at him, quickly getting up and running inside and into the bathroom. I didn't even bother trying to lock the door, I just ran inside and snatched my razor from the cabinet and ripped off my bracelets. As soon as all my bracelets were removed, I brought the cold metal down to my arm and pressed it down harder than I realized until it was gushing blood. Shit. I cut too deep. Maybe I can die before the boys fi- never mind. They found me.

"LUKE!" Is the last thing I hear before everything goes black.

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-Julie