Let Me Love You(sequel to All your little things)

Chapter 5

November

I sit on the couch, it's 12:00pm its the first day off since Mirabella was 1 month. I lay down on the couch and turn on TV Mira is asleep in her play pin and before I know it I fall asleep on the couch....

I awake to Mira crying, I sit up quickly alarmed... I rush and grab her rocking her side to side... she opens and shuts her mouth and grabs my boob.  I shake my head and sit down.  I throw off my shirt allowing her to feed.  I sink into a half sitting half laying position... thinking about the odd predicament we are in. it feels odd breastfeeding her.  I'm a boy... I mean I'm a boy in mind but I guess I'm a girl too..  I mean obviously... me and Louis's sex life has been nonexistent since we had Mirabella... we had sex twice since Mirabella was born.  I'm so scared he's going to go find someone else and leave me or worse...  cheat. god I hope he doesn't cheat when he's away.  just thinking about it makes me panic a little. I look at Mira and smile.... "I love you Mirabella laelynn " I wish she knew how much... I hear my phone ring and reach for it..  answering it...  "hello? "

as I answer I set Mirabella back in her crib.

"hey baby"

"oh lou" I say suddenly relieved...

"I love you." he says quietly.

I smile tears on the brink of my eyes..  "I love you too."

"how's Mira?"

"she's good.  sleeping. "

•SMUT SMUT SMUT SMUT•

I hear him  groan and move around on the phone.  "that's good baby. where are you right now?" he says a breathless...

"on the couch.. why? "

"take off your pants and spread your legs please."

"what why? "

"just do it...please." he says.  I hear the desperation in his voice..

"alright.." I say quietly. 

I set down the phone and  fumble to take off my pants and then I spread my legs. "okay." i say nervously. "I want you to start to stroke yourself slowly.. " "okay. " I take my member and start to stroke slow, the pleasure is immediate and I have the urge to go faster. "lou? " I say quietly..  he moans "where are you?  what are you doing?"  "on my bed... had to lock the dormroom door. missed you so much it's killing me...  have...  my.. fingers... inside me..  you do it better." I breathe out I start to go faster each moan he makes.  I find myself moaning along with him...  "lou." I say quietly.. "Marcel." he says breathless.  "wish you could fuck me... put your fingers inside yourself Marcel." "okay. " I listen without arguing.  as I feel my entrance I push forward.  I gasp as I enter.  "lou curl your fingers. " he gasps at The feeling.  "go slow." he makes small disapproving noises coming out of his mouth.  he gasps and moans... "go faster... " he nearly screams at the feeling...  "harder Louis." I curl my fingers feeling for my prostate when I reach it I go faster and faster towards it.  I know lou found his when he screams my name out "marrceel" "I'm gonna cum Louis."

"me to--"

he never got to finish that sentence as we cum in unison...

••••smut over••••

when it's over we just sit there f

or awhile catching our breath. "thank you marce I needed that. i miss us."

"I miss us too. still on for tonight at 8?"

"yeah tonight at 8 babe."

"I have to take a shower lou. see you tonight.  I love you."

"I love you too baaabaaa"

I laugh and when the call ends I frown.  I get up and look at Mira still sounding sleeping I grab the monitor and set it in her crib...  I grab the other one and set it in the bathroom.  I start the shower and set in.  I hurry and finish my shower. I bite my lip hard and start to sob... I miss him so much...  so Fucking much...