Let Me Love You(sequel to All your little things)

Chapter 14

September

I look in the mirror my mucus teared face stares back at me. My heart feels like it was torn in two. "I AM SORRY MARCEL!!!!" lou screams "i hear mira cry and louis walk towards her. i swallow the lump and open the door, louis turns around hopeful. i reach for mira and start to shush her. louis looks at me, "i love you marce." i shake my head pain filling my heart. "just get out louis."

That Morning

"morning baby." louis says kissing my cheek. i don't get the warm feeling i did before. my body is just on fire. "morning.." he frowns "you ok?" i nod looking down at my breakfast. Mira giggles in her highchair making me smile. i look at her and smile she turns and stares at me "daddy." mira blurts out. she giggles at me and says it again " da-ddy " she stares me right in the eye and says it. i smile tears filling my eyes i get up and grab her "that's right I'm daddy." she reaches out and touches my face as if to caress it . i smile closing my eyes tightly. tears fall from my eyes i open my eyes and am met with miras beautiful eyes .

"mira asleep?" i nod in response. "come here." he smirks. i shake my head no. " we aren't having sex louis. i am not in the mood." he frowns . "its been so long. " he shoots me a disappointed look. "last week is a long time?" he shrugs "seems like forever." he mumbles . i shake my head. "why do we always have to be about sex? why can't we just talk once in awhile? have a date without sex . " he looks at me anger flashing through him " it isn't sex to me. it is making love." i snort "please it's sex and we both know it." he stands up "i am not doing this . " and starts getting ready to leave . i walk into the room as i hear the door shut . i don't rush to him, make him stay or ask where he is going . i already know. To whoever he is fucking.

He comes back around 6, several hours later. Mira is in her playpin and i sit reading a book for my english class on the couch , with a full view of mira in front of me. He comes in his hair tousled a little drunk and his clothes are messed up. Anger fills me and i let it simmer trying to push it down. i don't say a word as he stumbles into the room, i hear the shower start and him get in i hear a ding and i smile at mira "dinners ready baby." she talks gibberish as i pick her up and put her into the high chair . i get the food out, mmm mac and cheese. i smile and i prepare mira and i's food. i hand mira her food after its cool. i would feed her but that stopped after a few months, shes already wanting to do things by herself i smirk at her already messy face. i sit next to her and we eat together by the time louis comes out the room dinners done and mirabella's asleep.

I sit in the living room reading my book again. He stops at the bedroom door staring at me. i look up and my glasses fall a little. he smiles at me and chuckles to himself . I turn back to my book without responding. he sits next to me and looks at me "why are you so angry at me ?" i turn to look at him the hurt and pain i feel come rushing back, i ignore it . "you know why louis." he looks at his hands and i set my book down and push my glasses up. "just tell me . " i say waiting. There's silence so thick it goes on forever until louis grunts and says "I cheated. " i nod . " i know. i know." That's when i break, when all of the recent events fall down on me so hard i cannot breath. tears and snot mixes and i am left a blubbering mess curled in a ball on the couch. Lou touches my shoulder and i flinch away "don't you dare touch me." i say in between sobs. He stares at me and i get up rushing to the bathroom. I look in the mirror my mucus teared face stares back at me. My heart feels like it was torn in two. "I AM SORRY MARCEL!!!!" lou screams "i hear mira cry and louis walk towards her. i swallow the lump and open the door, louis turns around hopeful. i reach for mira and start to shush her. louis looks at me, "i love you marce." i shake my head pain filling my heart. "just get out louis."

louis shakes his head at me "no. i wanna talk to you.