That's young thang
Things would go up n down with me and Dre so I really wasn't sure what to do at the moment most of the time he would disappear with no contact but when we did get in touch his excuse would be "his son" so I stared talking to this guy named Ryan.
Know Ryan was not only different cause of his skin, he was different cause he didn't come at me for my body he came at me like I was the only woman standing and he made me smile right off the back he knew jus what to say to me .
We hit it off really quick it was like a nightmare turning into a dream he was always texting me and calling me calling me beautiful, he even helped pay a few bills, so I invited him over to my home I wasn't ready for him to meet my kids yet so good thing my boys dad comes to get them on the regular and my mom comes to get melody a lot to.
I said: so where u from
Ryan said: I'm from Cali but raised out here in Vegas
I said: do u like it out here
He said: it's coo ( looking at me wisely)
I said: yea it's ok I wanna travel tho
( for some reason Ryan jus couldn't stop staring at me)
He says: you are so beautiful
I said: well thank u sweety do u want some to eat,or drink
He says: some to drink would be fine
I say: i have bottle water ,tea, or juice
He says: I'll take tea
(I walk to the kitchen to get the tea I look over to see that he is wondering around looking at pictures and sight seeing my whole living room)
He says: you stay here all alone
I say: yea
He says: this a nice crib u got
I say: thanks( walking back towards him to hand him his drink)
(He grabs it out my hand in a steady way)
(Know Ryan had brownish gold eyes and when u look in them it's hard to look away he had a baby face with a smile that could brighten up the room long curly hair a lil muscular but average height guy and he dressed pretty nice he didn't have that may tattoos but he was still attractive in so many ways to me I jus couldn't let my guard down)
(Ryan immediately started to kiss me and caress me it felt good but I jus couldn't do that
So I try to back away intensely but he grabs my arm to pull me back to him)
He says: don't be like that (grabbing my face to make his lips touch my ear)
(Lord did his voice melt me every-time he talked my legs got to shaking like a dryer)
( he started to slowly run his lips down to my neck and kiss and suck it so passionately making me pull him closer and caressing him and moaning)
(but I jus couldn't as much as I wanted to)
I say: ummm I'm not ready for that step yet
(He held his hands up and backed away)
He says: ok when ever u are ready I like u so I will wait but don't keep me waiting to long U gone miss out( grabbing my hand to make me touch some so long and fat I never would think it would be like that)
Ryan said: I gotta go
I said: no already
He said:yea I gotta go to work in a hour but I'll be back I'll always come back for u
I said: ok sexy
Ryan said: imma text u when I get home
I said: ok
(Ryan stared at me for a moment then kissed me goodbye and left out the house)
(After he left I couldn't stop thinking bout him he made me get my mind off of Dre)
The nxt day I called Ryan
Ryan says: hello
I said: hey wyd
He said: thinking bout u
I said: oh yea
Ryan said: yea
I said: well so have I
He said: wyd right knw can I come thru
I said: ummmmm yea sure
He said: iight I'm finna get in the shower and be on my way u want some to eat
I said: I was jus gone cook some
He said: you sure I'll pick some up
I said: no need boo jus bring your sexy ass over here
Ryan said: iight then fasho
(The phone hung up and I instantly went to take a shower and got cute as soon as I was doin my hair the door bell rang. I rushed downstairs and opened it to find Ryan standing at the door)
I said: well come in
(Ryan walked in, i close the door and he grabbed me and hugged me like he was missing me)
I said: that hug tho
He said: I missed u
I said: I missed u to
( Ryan took my hand and we went sat on the couch he looked over in the table n grabbed the remote)
He said: this yo tv remote
I said: yea duhh
He said: girrrlll I'm not finna play with u
(He then turnt the tv on to my favorite show)
I said: oh you comfortable comfortable
He said: hell yea knw whats for dinner bae
( I looked at him with commanding eyes as if he done did some wrong)
I said: boooyyyyy, what u wanna eat
He said: spaghetti
I said: ok I got
( I went in the kitchen got all the ingredients defrosted my meat and started to cook around 5 pm the food was done and was ready to serve I made Ryan a plate and me to to)
(He took a few bites)
Ryan said: damn girl
I said: what
He said: that shit is....... fuckin nasty
( I stopped at looked at him)
I said: taste pretty good to me
He said: HELL NAW THIS SHIT HELLA.....
I said: I'm sorry let me go get u some else( getting up to grab his plate)
He said: what u doin
I said: finna get u some else to eat
He said: y
I said: you said it was nasty
He said: I'm joking girl this shit bomb
( I laughed so hard)
I said: Ryan why u playin
(Ryan laughed)
I said: that's not funny I was really finna cry I was so embarrassed
Ryan said: naw baby it's good I promise
I said: ok good
(Ryan demolished his food like he been starving for days I couldn't believe how fast he ate)
( he looked at mine)
He said: you gone finish yours
I said: ummmm yea
(He put his plate down and grabbed mine, I'm thinking he finna eat mine to but he doesn't he starts feeding me)
He said: it's always good to make sure your girl eats
I said: oh so I'm your girl ( covering my mouth as I'm chewing)
Ryan said: I mean if u wanna be its up to you
I said: to be honest( taking my plate and his to the kitchen) I'm still not ready for a relationship
He said: well why not if u don't mind me asking
( once he said that I Immediately started to think bout baby)
I said: I ummm
Ryan said: ummmmm?
( I stay quiet for a moment)
He says: look u don't have to tell me
I said: umm no sorry I'm jus still haunted by it
Ryan said: haunted by what?
I said: I had a fiancé
He said: had?
I said: yea he died, he was brutally beat and shot by his homeboy
He said: damn sorry to hear that
I said: yea it's ok I'm still tryna get over the fact he's gone
Ryan said: I see you have a daughter was she and 3 boys are they his
I said: only my little girl is the two light skinned boys are by another guy and the other one was by my highschool sweetheart
Ryan said: are u still talking to your 2 baby daddies
I said: well for my 2 boys yea but only bout them and well my oldest son dad it's complicated
Ryan said: will I be able to meet all 4 of your kids
I said: well mayb jus 3 of them
Ryan said: y not the 4th one
I said: well cause he died when he was 2 years old
Ryan said: whhaattt oh damn
I said: yea worst day of my life
He said: yea I feel it
I said: do u have kids
He said: yea but I never get to see her
I said: her?
He said: yea my daughter (taking out his wallet to show me a picture of him and his daughter)
I said: omg she is beautiful
He said: thank u I miss her and I'm tryna get her back but her mom being a bitch
I said: well I'll help u get her back
He said: naw it's ok I'm doin the best I can as we speak
I said:ok
(Ryan looked at his watch)
He said: oh snap I gotta go but imma call u later (kissing me on my forehead and left out the door)
(Why is it that after every two hours of him being here he rushes out the house like he forgot something and had to get back to it)
