facedown :: mark lee

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"haneul, we need to talk", mark said and i looked at him confused but nodded to signal him to continue. "can we take this...uh...somewhere more private?", he said whilst scratching his neck and looking around the fully packed nct127 dorm. i was currently visiting taeyong on his day off because i had promised to watch rise of the guardians with him. i looked at taeyong, who was very busy keeping doyoung from killing donghyuck and save sicheng from yuta at the same time. with a sigh i nodded and followed mark into his room. "uhh...hyung, could you leave for a second?", mark said when he caught jungwoo laying on his bed. the elder looked at him for a second, then looked at me, looked at mark again, and suddenly his eyes went wide. "oh god, yes, of course, i'll be gone in a second, don't worry", within a second he had jumped up from his bed, took his phone and rushed out of the room.

"okay listen...come here, sit down, it's awkward if you just stand there", mark sat and patted the side of the bed next to him. i reluctantly took the seat next to him and tried reading his face. about 14 hours ago this boy didn't even want to look at me and now he keeps smiling to himself whenever our eyes meet. what is happening? "okay, look. i...god, how do i start this...you see, i...you...it's just...fuck it, i can't say it", and before i was able to process anything i felt lips on mine. what is happening?! was mark really kissing me?! i was too caught up in my thoughts that i almost didn't feel him pulling away again and smiling at me. "i...what?...why?", the words were spilling out of my mouth before i was able to stop them. "because...i like you", he kept smiling at me and i just really wanted him to kiss me again. but wait. hina. "but what about hina?", i asked way too confused. "she doesn't even compare to you. you know that, right?", what? "no one likes hina anymore, you're prettier, smarter, and way hotter. i didn't actually like her, i was just confused because i thought you didn't like me the way i liked you. but now i don't care anymore. i like you and i want you to know that", mark said and i swear my heart stopped beating for a second. what happened to him? i mean, yes, the things he said about liking me were amazing and i couldn't feel happier about them but since when did he get so mean? especially towards hina? 

"you just used hina?", were the first things i managed to talk about. "yeah, i kinda wanted to make you jealous", mark answered and took my hands. "and since when are you broken up? i mean you were making out in the middle of the stage less than a day ago!", i said, taking my hands away from his again. "that's the catch, she doesn't know", he admitted and my face fell even further. "you intend to cheat on her? with me? are you joking?!", i yelled and stood up from the bed. what the fuck?! who does he think he is?! i started pacing around the room with a billion thoughts on my mind. "listen, i want you to get revenge! for everything that she's done to you, for the way she treated you! don't you want to pay her back for everything she did?!", mark exclaimed, also standing up now. and my pacing stopped. i turned around and walked up to mark. i stopped just inches away from his face and looked him dead in the eye. as calm and quiet as possible, almost like a whisper, i said:"no. at least not like this. i'm not that kind of person who steals other girls' boyfriends just because she likes the feeling of it. i don't want to get revenge on hina because i know she wouldn't ever stop. and i certainly don't want to hurt her the same way she hurt me because i know how that feels. and if you think that's how i am or if that's how you want me to be, i don't want to be with you."

after that, i left his room. i said goodbye to taeyong making up an excuse of having unexpected practice and exited the dorm without sparing the time to send mark another glance.