Bittersweet

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Sathya was laughing out loud watching that comedy scene playing on the television. She won't watch TV at day time, only at night since it will help her to fall asleep soon. But now she is sitting before the TV this afternoon time to avoid her thoughts which dwelling her in the room called 'No place for HOPE'

Yeah, right now she is so hopeless and doesn't know what was the purpose of the things that happen in her life.

She kept changing the channels pressing the remote's button. But she couldn't find the peace that she is searching for. She randomly paused on the music channel where a sad love song was playing and placing the remote on her lap and she stared at it blankly.

That time Raghu entered the house, Sathya looked his face but he turned down and locking the door behind Raghu slowly gazed at her in a kind of apologetic way.

She found his face was calm and handsome since yesterday he shaved off his beard that almost covering half of his face but she instantly twirled her head to the TV screen reminding the fight between them happened recently. She tried to never look at his face until he goes inside but she failed willingly.

His hand carried some packages and his eyes were fixed on her. She wanted to reconcile with him but something doesn't let her do it. Gripping the hem of her saree Sathya stared only the TV and he doesn't drag it further and walked inside the bedroom.

Sathya hates this Sunday, it feels like she was trapped with this headstrong man who caged her as she has nowhere to run. He does cage her, mentally running on her brain all the time.
Because of this, she lost all her interest in new things at work, and she hates when she doesn't have anything to do.

It's been a month since Raghu revealed his Marfan syndrome. Their conversation became even lesser compared to before. And they don't engage in love.

At first, Sathya doesn't want to think about his confession and assumed it won't be a problem between them. But as the time moves she started to read about it, the more she knew it the more she developed fears, whether what he said might happen.
Like Raghu, she doesn't want any of her children to have that syndrome.
But at the same time, nothing clearly states that he is indeed having that syndrome. His long arms and legs are the only visible symptom, other than that he doesn't look like the images given on the internet.

Till now she is staying quiet and never asked anything about this to him cause she felt he might feel bad if she questions him.
He doesn't have anyone and now this revelation made her heart grow big and bigger with too much affection into it. But he seemed to be the same. In fact, he is getting angry at her even for small things. Last week's fight was a fine example.
That day Raghu was so silent and his face was so dull, when they entered the home he went straight to the bed without changing his clothes.

Sathya find it odd, she went near him and kneeling on the floor she caressed his forehead to check whether he has a fever. "What happened?" She asked him showing all her concerns.

"That's none of your business, go and do your work," he retorted like slapping across her face.,

Which eventually made Sathya get angry. "I just asked what happened, why you are shouting at me?"

"I said I don't need your concern right, just get out," he snapped and turned to the other side to sleep.
From that moment Sathya not even spoke a word to him. She is sad not because of the fight but because of him. He is throwing her out when she nears his boundary, and he snaps her down when she reaches out her hand for him. She is feeling hopeless seeing his attitude.

What did I do wrong? She longingly asks his silhouette but the reply she hasn't got it.

Turning off the TV she laid on the couch. She hasn't spoken to her parents properly. She couldn't ask why they did this to her, why they hid this from her but she doesn't want to hurt them.