Salomé doesn't see herself as ordinary girl. It's quite the opposite. She views herself in ways that brings down the light from within. But, making eye contact with a person will change all of that. Her life will be viewed and changed in ways she co...
I mean we totally just told a complete stranger to get in our car. A handsome, delicious, and sexy stranger that is . Girl stop with those thoughts! Ya barley know the guy for crying out loud. Looks aren't everything you know. I mean he's technically stranger danger. I only know his name and that's it. I have my guard up in the car as we drop him off.
I wanted to kill Liza. Like he could've took an uber or something. I do not need anymore awkward moments. Sh*t am I being a b*itch for that? I cant help but to internally laugh. I'm so darn mean but its OK. If it has to deal with our safety first then I don't care about the rest. You can never be too careful today. But I feel like I struggle opening up with people with the stuff that has happened to me.
He keeps trying to talk to me and make small conversation. I really don't feel like talking right now. Like can he take the hint? It's just that I don't want to talk back it's just that .... It's too complicated. I'm f*cked up in every sense. All I can think that is if I talk my double chin will move. I'm feeling so self conscious right now. All I can think is that my voice doesn't sound too feminine or that my body is too big for the car seat. My body is big so I know he can see my side rolls and how big my arms are since he is sitting behind me. Why did I have to let him sit in the back? I should have just made him sit in the front. Not so long ago I was feeling ok but now I'm not feeling alright. I feel like all my insecurities are all out on the table on display to see.
I want to know what's going in that head of his. Why does he have such an interest in me? I'm a fucking hippo for crying out loud. He's an Adonis... there's no way that this makes sense.
I try and catch glances of him with the side mirror. But every time that I try and look at him he catches my glance. I turn my head and pretend I wasn't looking at him. Can he no look at me. I feel like he's judging me looking at my face. I wonder if I stink too. I was walking for a while at the beach. I must smell salty. Haha
As we're close to dropping him off it looks like a fancy community. It looks top notch if I must say. I wonder who is this friend of his and what he does for a living. A sister right here wouldn't mind working for him if he lived in such a luxurious area. It is Miami it has its good parts and it's other areas. I begin to notice men walking in groups. When we pass by many of them take like this intake of air which was pretty weird. It almost looks like if they're trying to sniff this moving car. It's kind of funny to me I wonder if Liza catches on to that. But yet again I sometimes notice some things that others don't.
" Well we're a minute away from my stop" says this glorious man behind me.
I just nod at him. What else could I possibly say to him?
I mean the man later on asks me to go out with him yet again. I know I told him yes before at the beach but I changed my mind. Just as soon I was going to answer to him that I was feeling under the weather.... Here comes big mouth Liza to says yes. I was in-disbelief. How dare she ! To top it off she embarrasses me too! God what did I do to deserve this in one night? Such an eventful evening.
We say our goodbyes. As he says goodbye to me I can't but melt in my seat. He winks at me! God I never had a man wink at me. All I could think is at this moment is wow.Am I alive ? Yes I am. Did this just happen? Yes it did. Are you ready? No I'm not.
" Liza. Oh god Liza what did you do? Do I look like going out to drink type? You know I hate alcohol and I hate being around people. Especially douche bags who can't help but look at me because of my weight" Salo
" Listen to me Salo and listen to me clearly. You're fu*king beautiful ok. I don't know why you feel this way about yourself. I wish you could see what I see. I'm not trying to be a b*tch but if you want the way you perceive yourself to change you must make those changes." Liza
I stay quiet and take in what she's said. I know she cares for me so when my family gives me advice to lose weight, I don't take it to heart. They're only looking out for me. I begin to think that I do want to change my life around. I want to feel happiness and to feel free. I feel that being this big has blocked me so much from life. I can't continue to live like this. I believe in myself. I can change my life around to begin to take care of myself.
As Liza is fixing the phone to put the GPS to go back to the hotel I begin to look around. I see Xavier talking to a girl. She beautiful, tall, dark, has amazing legs and perfectly thin. I can't stop looking at how beautiful her hair is. I look closely and notice that he is smiling at her too. Looks like he is enjoying her company. My brain tells me I told you so. It seems that she keeps on touching him. Either slightly patting him on the shoulders or bumping to him with her body. It's as if she needs to have some sort of physical touch. I'm slightly getting annoyed. But hey they look like a beautiful couple. It was too good to be true. I knew he was just playing me. After all day talking how beautiful I am and stuff he goes to the next chick and tells her the same thing. Ugh typical.
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As Liza puts the car on drive, he turns on time to look at the car retrieving. He looks at my window and I just roll my eyes at him. Jerk. Well if he thought he could play me he has another thing coming. I'm just going to go out with him this night and then cut him off. I'm going to make sure I look cute and that all heads will turn wherever I pass by. This fat b*tch is going to make people worship where she walks. I'm going to look and feel F L A W L E S S.
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