Decaffeinated

ten.

What?

"What did you say?" I wanted to confirm.
"I said I love you, can you stop being oblivious? A friend would go this just for you? Isn't that a bit obvious?" she sighed.
"Since when?"
"Since forever. Before you met Sana, I was already madly in love with you. I was so in denial back then until Sana got you. That was the time I realized that I have deep feelings for you. I waited, for 5 years I've waited, I don't know why, but I did. And now I've said it, I am madly, and deeply in love with you, Hirai Momo. I would give the world to you if I have to. I will make you happy."
“Why haven't you told me earlier?”
“I was indenial, Momo. As much as I wanted to tell you I wouldn't because me, myself can't even admit that I want you.”
“Why me? And why did you waited for something that's not sure?” She looked me in the eyes, those tired but lovley eyes. “It's like you came into my life to fill the dark holes in my heart. I just can't let go, I won't let go, because I know that when I do, it will bring back these holes.” 

I didn't know what to say, but maybe, just maybe, she isn't referring to me.
“You're drunk, Jeongyeon. I'm not the girl you want, it just so happens that I'm here and maybe you're imagining that I'm the girl you love.” she laughed and shook her head. “But if a person is drunk, they have the courage to say things that is true, right?”
What she said was true, but I can't, please, not yet.

“Jeongyeon my life is like a decaffeinated coffee, and my ability to love is like the caffeine. All gone.”
“That's where you're wrong, Momo.” she stood up and went right infront of me, only inches away from me.
“Once a coffee has been decaffeinated, there's still 3 percent of caffeine.” She lifted my chin, I was unable to move... I don't know why.
“I can and I will make that 3 percent grow, Momo. I've waited so long and now I got a chance, I won't let it go.”

Having control of my body again, I stepped back. “I'm going to sleep, make sure you sleep well.” I bowed at her and went to my provided room.

I dialed Mina's number as soon as I lay down on the bed. I wanted to talk to someone about this because I don't know what to feel. I'm not angry, not sad, not happy; Sana really wrecked me, huh.

“Mina.”

“Yes, Momo-unnie? You don't sound too good.”

“She confessed to me.”

“Jeongyeon?”

“Yes.”

“What do you feel now?”

“I feel... nothing, but I didn't said anything and just walked out of the living room. What do I do, Mina?”

“I say sort out your feelings first before doing anything stupid or deciding without thinking it through.”

“Sort my feelings?”

“There's a chance that you also like her, since you said nothing and just went out. Maybe you're still blinded by Sana which you shouldn't be anymore. I understand that you've both been with each other for 5 years, and 5 years is no joke.”

“That's why I'm having a hard time, I can't just throw that 5 years, Mina. I can't.”

“You see, even if someone lasted 5, 7, or even 10 years together, if it wasn't meant to be, it won't be.”

“So you think me and Jeongyeon can be destined together?”

“Who knows? But I'm pointing that you need to wake up and smell the coffee. Sana will not comeback, and I hope you give you, and your heart to be happy again.”

“I love how you always know the words to say.”

“I'm not your bestfriend for nothing. Momo-unnie.”

“Thank you, Mina. I'll be sleeping now.”

“Sleep well, unnie. Don't think of it too much now, you need rest.”

“I will. Good night, Mina. Love you.”

“Good night, unnie. Love you too.”

I hung up the phone call and dropped my phone on the bed.

Like her, huh?

I stared at the ceiling and let thoughts run in my mind. I never thought of her falling for me. We barely even talk, we rarely make interactions, until now. What has happened to the world? Have she gone nuts, or I was just so oblivious back then? I mean, 5 years ago she really does look good with silver hair, and I don't know why and how, but she always change hair colour. Maybe it's her habbit?

Why do I even know this.

I decided to sleep, God knows what will happen tomorrow, if she doesn't talk to me, then so be it, but I do wish she would talk. I don't want a trip be filled by silence.

-

“You're up early.” Someone said while I was mixing my tea. “Or maybe you didn't slept at all?” She laughed, I rolled my eyes.
“I slept well, thank you very much.” she laughed even more.
“Good morning, Ms. Momo.” she greeted.
“Good morning.” I greeted back. She kissed my nape, it gave me a giddy feeling, a feeling I never want to be gone.
“How's the most beautiful human being in the world doing?” she teased.
“You should ask yourself, then.” she chuckled. “You're learning from me, I like it.” she back hugged me and bit my earlobe.

“Baby, you're my home.” hearing her saying those words makes me feel assured and safe.
“But, I'd rather be homeless.” she lets go of the hug, I turned around to see her, and she was with someone I don't know.
“Don't do this to me, Sana. Please.” she shrugged and smiled at me. “I'm sorry, Momo, but you'll be just fine without me.” she left with her girl. Leaving me all alone.
“Sana.....”
“Momo!!”
I felt a shaking feeling.
“Momo!!”

-

“Momo wake up!” someone shouted and kept on shaking me, I opened my eyes and saw Jeongyeon's face.

She looks worried.

I sat up immediately and touched my face. I blinked my eyes several times and felt tears fall down on my face. I had a flashback on what I just dreamt right now.
“Momo, are you okay?” Jeongyeon asked, I ignored and tears kept on falling down.

Why am I crying?