You Don't Know You're Killing Me

Chapter 3 (Raven)

Meantime in the girls room, they were chillin having girl talk.

So tell us about Carter they said, which made Nez feel uncomfortable because of what he had done to her on the bus, but she kept quiet. I took a deep breath I think he's the one y'all I really do. Amanda said are you sure because he seems a little flirtatious. I looked at her and said whatever and laughed. Selena said so this is the guy you want to take your.. you know?

I said yes without hesitation. Amanda and Nez both sighed at the same time. Well Rae the one you really need could be the one that's right in front of your face, while the person your with is just a distraction. Your talking about Chris arent you? she said maybe, because idk if you see it but everybody else does. I sighed Chris is my friend. Chris is always gone be my friend, I dont wanna mess up our friendship. Nez kinda rolled her eyes.

There was a knock at the door, I ran over to open it. It was Chris standing there in all black looking good as ever. He smiled at me, umm hello can i come in he said waving his hand in front of my eyes. I laughed and said yeah and he walked pass me and sat on Nez's bed next to her. I heard him complaining to her about his headache, when he usually comes to me about it. So of course I felt some type of way. They talked as she massaged his temples for a while.

So how did you get down here I asked interrupting them. Well the teachers are in the lower rooms so i decided to come chill with y'all, all the homies sleep. I was sleep for a lil bit too but i couldnt stay because my mind was too wide awake. Oh, I said as he began to massage his own temples walking over to my bed, and sitting down. So where we going tomorrow? He looked at me and said where ever you wanna go although I did have a few places in mind.

Like what? I asked him. He laid back on the bed with his hands behind his head, and took in a deep breath. Well I was thinking about a few places like Central Park, The Empire state building, the Lincoln center, Colonial Belle, Statue of liberty and the Brooklyn Bridge. Well at least a few of them, how that sound to you? I said great and he smiled. I miss you bestie I blurted out. His smile grew bigger and brighter I miss you too he said taking one hand from behind his head and placing it over mine, which sent chills up my spine.

I laid my head on his chest as I usually did waiting for him to run his fingers through my hair, which he did. I closed my eyes and placed my hand on his chest, his heart was beating so fast, and he smelled so good. He softly asked me what was on my mind. Alot, I replied. He said like what? I said well im just really looking forward to tomorrow and then just alot. You can tell me anything and you know i'ma always keep it a hunnet, and be honest with you and you know this.

I sighed well Chris, I think i'm in love. he makes me so happy and I just feel like i'm ready to take it to the next level with him. he didn't say anything. Well do you think i'm over thinking it? He took a deep breath and said think about it before you do it. You cant just think your in love you have to know so, and also just for the simple fact that once it's gone you'll never get it back, and if you truly think you can trust him then go for it. Then his voice got really low when he said " you can't help who you love. But I gotta go my head is just too much for me to bare right now. Alright ladies he said as he kissed his hand and waved goodbye to us as he walked out of the room closing the door behind him.

Selena laughed, awww he blew us a kiss, but girl you wrong as hell for that one. No i'm not we talk about everything together, so I just told him what was going on. Thats it. Selena threw her hands up, well okay if that's what you wanna think. I turned off my lamp and decided to text both Chris and Carter goodnight and got no reply from either one and thats not like Chris to not reply to me. So I began to think maybe they were right, and what if he was in love with me? Nah ,I'm beginning to act like them. let me just go to sleep and just clear my mind of this shit.

In the morning everybody showered and waited downstairs for their partners by their car. I seen Carter walk out wearing a plain white tee and some blue jeans with some air forces. He stood about 5'11-6'0. he came over to me and kissed me He smiled at me, and only was it this time it didnt make me blush. But I smiled back anyway. He was my boyfriend and I loved him but today just seemed different.

A few minutes later I seen Chris walk out in a white tee with a pocket on it that he designed himself, Some concord Jays, black jeans, and a black Snapback he also designed himself with a pyramid on it. He was picking on Amanda from the way his facial expressions were while they were talking. I laughed and Carter followed my gaze. He grabbed my face and kissed me. So what? we watchin lame niggas now? Aye thats my best friend you talkin about dont do that Carter! He blew his breath and I grabbed his face. Im serious Stop it! he laughed and said alright.

All the girls were all over Chris all the time. So I had to make my way through them to get to him. he was laughing and flirting with them. Sorry to interrupt, but I need my partner. His attention turned to me and he excused himself from the girls. Good morning beautiful he said as he led me to our car and we got in the back seat. So where we going first? He asked looking at me. Umm well we can go to Central Park. He said okay and notified the driver.

Today will be fun I thought. He was looking out the window as i admired his profile. I've never felt this way about him. EVER! Chris was always my over goofy, silly dumb ass bestfriend who had ADHD and got on my nerves half the time. Why am I starting now? I put my hand over his and he held it. Your scared. He said turning to look at me. What? No. He said yes, you only do this when your scared. I cleared my throat ummm yeah its just that were somewhere new. I'll protect you..Always, he said. he had on a serious face, I knew he meant it. Truth is I was afraid of loving him. he scooted closer and put his arm around me, and I felt butterflies in my stomach. Let me know if I'm making you feel uncomfortable or over-stepping boundaries, you know since you have a boyfriend and all I understand that there's some things i'm gonna have to stop doing. I hate to hear him say that. he started to say something else so I cut him off and said your not as I leaned my head on him.

I still haven't found a prom date... You have any girls? I sighed umm how about Nez? Well she doesn't seem into me, besides I think she has a date. Oh thats right!... What's right? She's not into me? or she has a date? he said panicky. Oh I was talking about her having a date. he said alright, well were here. From the moment we got out the car today my whole life and view of him changed. he held me on every ride. Chris was a true gentlemen, he made sure I ate, he protected me at all times. I felt like I was his. His one and only.