You Don't Know You're Killing Me

Chapter 9

An officer walked up to Chris's mom while we were in the waiting room, well mam this fire wasn't started inside the house no stoves no inside flames nothing that leads to him falling asleep being the reason no candles or anything. The fire was started outside the house we found traces of gasoline all around the house. Whoever did it wasn't smart enough to cover the evidence, do you know anyone who would have a motive to set your house on fire? No she said I don't know anyone who could have been so heartless. She said rubbing her arm and looking at the ground.

He turned to me and asked, so your his girl friend? Best friend I said correcting him. Wow the fire fighters really got this mixed up a bit. So how's school is there anyone that has anything against Christopher? I shook my head, no everybody loves him he's so kindhearted. He smiles at everyone and will do anything for anybody. He nodded his head well that got me no where he laughed but I'm sure the evidence left at the scene is enough to figure it out. It could be the arsonists we were looking for. well if you guys find out anything else call me. We said okay, then he left out the door it hit me.

CARTER THAT BITCH! I thought to my self but said nothing, I know it had to be him who did it. Just then the doctor walked out with his note pad. Mrs. Brown? Hawkins she corrected him. Oh I'm sorry, well your son is fine he has a slight scratch and a bruise on the left side of his face. Nothing major But he did fall and fracture his wrist, he had to get 20 stitches on his side but he should be okay seems like a tough kid. There were no burns but he does have a little damage to his lungs that should go away with a little treatment, you know from the smoke. He should be up any minute now he's on oxygen, and may be released in two or three days. You two can go back and see him now. We nodded and went to the back. He was laying there sleeping peacefully I went over to him and laid my head on his chest. His mom sat there with her head in her hands crying I walked back over to her and said what's wrong mama? She cried, we don't have much already and now we don't have a home. I don't really have much to offer at this time. And I don't want him suffering from this, it's gonna effect him badly I just wanted everything to go good for us.

I rubbed her back well you can stay with us you know you can. She shook her head no I don't wanna be a burden on anybody I'll go to my sisters. I nodded my head well if she says no you always know there's a open door At my house I said as I text my mother to let her know where I was and what was going on. She told me she was on her way and I said ok. Just then we heard chris groan and reach up for his head. Christopher? His mom said. You there ma? Ow my head hurts, you know I had the craziest dream you know. It was something like ummm our house had caught on fire and I was in it... I think I got rushed to the hosp--- he paused opening his eyes. Ma he said sitting up fast looking at his wrist and pulling at the oxygen tank he had on his face. No baby stop she said rushing over to him ... He looked at her with tears in his eyes. Mama did our house burn down??? She nodded her head yes slowly. And hugged him but ma I got everything in that house he said burying his face in her neck he looked passed her to the door with a look in his eyes that I'll never forget I don't know if it was hurt or anger I could only imagine the thoughts going through his head but that guy holding ms Joyce was not Christopher . Those eyes were not his they were so cold.

I looked at the floor and just decided to go and hug him too. He reached his hurt hand and arm around my body and said where we gone go ma you know we don't have nothing? She said your aunts until we can get back on our feet. So were gonna have to move outta our house? She nodded her head, unfortunately yes. He shook his head and laid back down on his side away from us. Mama I didn't do it I wasn't cooking I didn't have nothing on fire I just took a shower and went to sleep that's it I swear he mumbled. She said I know they said somebody burned it down purposely. He shook his head and said nothing for the rest of the time we were there. She looked at her watch, I'm gonna go tell your aunt and make us a room at her house okay? He just nodded.

She asked me was I coming and I told her I would stay with him. I slowly climbed into his bed and wrapped my arms around him. I'm sorry this happened to you chris I really am you don't deserve this your the best person in this whole world. This too shall pass I know your strong enough. I heard him sniffling and it made my eyes water. You don't understand we've put so much into this house and I just can't live knowing that everything I've worked so hard to get has been demolished by some low life I swear I'm gonna kill him when I'm able to whoever did this is a dead man walking. My whole life was in that house I was born in that house in the tub. He sat up quickly almost making me fall he stood up no chris sit down I begged just sit down NO he yelled you don't under stand he said tearing the mask off of his face. Raven they took my life from me they took it!!! I can't do this he said picking up a chair and throwing it against the wall I'm gonna kill them!!! Calm down chris!!! I said trying to hold him ... He kneeled down with his head in his hands so I knew he had a headache his face and ears turned a bright red they took it from me!!!! He got up and punched the wall with his fractured hand and yelled out in pain... Chris I said leaping into him and tackling him to the floor baby it's gonna be okay calm down I said roughly holding him and kissing his forehead. He got up and paced the floor with the curl that fell on his face flowing in the wind that came through the window... You need to calm down and you need to get back on that oxygen your lung is damaged!!! If you don't sit the fuck down I swear I'm leaving he glared at me and began pacing again ... Until I saw a weakness in his face omg chris lay down your gonna faint I said rushing him to the bed and putting his oxygen mask back on.

Chris if it stands for anything right now I love you with my life. Your my best friend my first REAL everything. I want you to be mine I want you to promise me that your gonna lay here and get help I need you to understand that being angry won't solve anything. He nodded his head with his red nose still sniffling I love you too raven he said in a whisper hold me please? I will chris I will. I laid down putting the covers over us I rubbed his back you need the doctor to check out that hand again he nodded his head I rubbed his back until he nodded off I just wanted him to believe me. I wanted him to be okay I heard him fall into a deep sleep and as the doctor came in I told him what happened and he shot a pain killer into his hand but I guess his hand was already in so much pain he didn't feel it... This should keep him sleep for the rest of the night I said okay and watched his little tv until I fell asleep with him. I kissed his ear. I love you I whispered and with his good hand he reached he intertwined his fingers with mine I smiled a little to myself and went to sleep with my forehead against the back of his neck. I was in love.