distance

warmth

[11.09.18]

even if we're standing alone on the glaciers of ice, however we try to act tough and tepid we know for sure that we just want someone to hold us and keep us warm.

she don't seem to notice how her presence affects me, how her heat radiates that just caught my attention and how my desires fueled whenever she holds me. it was winter; a perfect season for warm cuddles and hot drinks.

it was winter, when we all wore our hoodies and tie scarves around our necks and insert beanies on our heads. it was winter, wherein we look for a heated place to stay and seek for warmth. it was winter, when i felt your hot skin against mine.

it electrifies me, whenever your skin's against mine. it was ironic that it calms my heart and pounces at the same time. that whenever you hold my hand, whenever you caress or squeeze it, sends warmth all over my skin, all over my system that makes me crave for it. for it to keep me warm from this season, i supposed.

and as the weeks go by our touches became warmer, longer, and more affectionate. surprised back hugs and whispers of breath, it was all so warm. it felt so fuzzy, so good, that each and everyday i crave for it, your warmth. i discovered a soft spot from you, and every time i see you i just melt.

it was winter, when i felt your warmth and you being you, was too kind to let me have it. and we let our walls down and chose to be in each other's arms, our happiness. it was winter, when i realized 'friends' don't touch each other like that, 'friends' don't kiss each other's neck like that, 'friends' don't say and call names like that, and 'friends' was not the label between us. it was winter, when your warmth radiated over me, and my love radiated over you. it was winter, when i fell for you. it was winter, when i felt the hottest of all time.

it was winter.

and here we are in the present, barely talking and just stealing glances at each other. the erratic sentiments i felt for you over washed my senses once again, but i just look at you.

your warmth is as powerful as ever, you are temptation. and i'm here, being lured with your gazes and accidental touches and all i could do is take a peak in your soul through your eyes. there are no words but just actions.

we are already in the present and wished to burry down the past, and when i'm with you everything just feels so fast.

those touches that lingered, those words that we used to say towards each other were stuck in the memories and never will come back.

those touches and "i love you's" i say to you before, i'm saying it now to someone else.

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this was really a personal "letter" towards someone truly, deeply special to me :) and it was published as an au from my works. anyways, have a good day everyone!