To all the wizards I have loved before

Chapter 11

Hey humans!! I'm so sorry I haven't updated in forever. School has been hectic...but I'm back and I promise it was worth the wait. I've been doing a lot of different povs so I've decided to do Ginny and Harry next. Love you all unusual and strange humans💞

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Harry was beyond baffled at his best mate's recent behavior.

Perhaps, Harry had to admit, it felt as though Hermione had completely abandoned the Golden Trio. She had chosen the presumed death eater over her friends.

In that instance Harry understood Ron's cold behavior towards her.

However even after Hermione had stayed in the Hospital Wing with Ron after he had been poisoned, Ron had kept his cold demeanor in place. He wouldn't speak to her before, but now Ron wouldn't even look at Hermione.

Sure him and Lavender had broken things off and yes he did have feelings for Hermione, it was certain.

They were much too stubborn to admit anything to each other and no matter how hard it seemed Hermione made an effort to make peace between them, Ron would stomp away muttering about a Potions essay.

It pained Harry to watch his only friends speak to him as though the other wasn't there, but he had his own problems to work out. 

Sirius, his godfather, the only legitimate parental figure Harry had in his life, was gone.

And the pain that Harry had to endure daily at the realization was practically unbearable. It felt as though a million crucios were being inflicted upon him all at once.

And the feelings of confusion and pain didn't end there.

Harry was sure that Malfoy was doing something much worse than manipulating Hermione into leaving her best friends without her help and advice.

When Malfoy wasn't flirting or sneaking off with Hermione, he'd disappear alone off to who knows where for extended periods of time. Hermione could be seen during these times pacing around the library or the Gryffindor common room, nervously chewing on her already chapped bottom lip.

The most frightening thing was what everyone thought Harry was oblivious to. Hermione actually loved Malfoy. She loved him. And Malfoy knew. He was toying with her.

Was that his task?, Harry wondered, to get to the only people who care for me, who are a steady source of happiness, and tear them apart from the inside out?

It filled Harry with terror to see Hermione's first legitimate relationship one with such pain and manipulation. With such one-sided affection, concern.

He wasn't the only one loosing everything.

He wished for everything to go back to the beginning of his fourth year. The excitement, the carefree feeling, the ease.

When everything was simple, when everything was calm.

Everything was changing, and Harry just couldn't keep up.

This year it felt as though he'd seen Ginny for the first time. Harry began feel a tinglely sensation in the bottom of his stomach whenever she walked past him. Ginny was no longer Ron's younger sister, to Harry she was a blossoming young witch.

He burned with jealousy watching her flirt with pigheaded fifth years, sixth years, and even some seventh years who dropped everything in attempt to catch her gaze.

But what would Ron say?

He wouldn't say anything, he'd have already brutally murdered you, you bimbo.

And Ginny?

She'd laugh in your daft, scarred face as she'd sneak out to shag Mclaggen.

Harry glowered in the darkness of his four poster.

That was it, he'd been alone in his thoughts for far too long.

He needed the peace, the serenity he only ever found in sleep anymore.

Closing his eyes, Harry felt the familiar sharp pain in his scarred forehead.

With a smug expression stuck on his face, Harry drifted off to sleep, knowing the only information Voldemort would retrieve from his mind that night was a deatheater, blood traitor love triangle and Harry's confused feelings for a particular redhead.

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BTW anyone else like totally in love with that fan art of Harry?? I had a hard time choosing between that and:

This so yeah. Okay I'm sorry it took me so long to update but I had severe writer's block so please forgive me!!!🙏🙏🙏

Anyways I love you sweeties 😘 and I hope you haven't abandoned my story. I promise I won't take this long to update again.