Ryder woke up feeling just as terrible as he ended yesterday with. He wasn't interested in going to school, and suddenly wished he weren't even here at all.
What if he were high? Would he forget just as usual? Or would he keep thinking of Liam but not be bothered by it? If he weren't here he wouldn't have to think about this. If he weren't here, he wouldn't have even met Liam. Ryder isn't sure what's worse. Never meeting Liam; Or dealing with these emotions for a boy who thinks he's straight. Liam is straight.
Ryder's not.
What if Ryder could pretend? Maybe if he tells himself enough that he's straight...He will be? No. That's stupid. Lots of people tell themselves their straight everyday. It doesn't get them anywhere. They still aren't. No matter how much they wish they were.
All Ryder wants right now, is to be just like everybody else.
He gets ready for school. No matter how much he wishes he didn't have to. Of course, before he gets out of the car, Mark gives him a piece of advice. "Shield your eyes. They're what always give you away." Ryder nods, masking his sadness with his usual sly smirk, and gives his Dad a salute. "See you after school." He says, and gets out.
He walks into the school. The the smells and sounds overwhelming as he passes kids around him. The crowded hallway seeming far too lonely and uncaring. Ryder's not sure how much patience he has today, but he's sure there isn't much he's got. He doesn't want to have to deal with his emotions today. God, he needs drugs. But he can't feel their effects anymore. So what's the point? There isn't one.
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Who's the beast?
That's the question everybody is asking themselves. That's what we all need to know. We need that answered before anyone can move on.
So far, it's been a week. A week since Ryder had his emotional breakdown. A week since Hayden and Liam got back together.
Ryder can't say he's shocked. He called it. Knew it would happen. He thought he prepared himself well enough for the moment when the words fell out of Liam's mouth. He couldn't have been less prepared. Immediately his face had paled, and he did what he normally did, gave him a smirk and made a dirty joke. One which Liam was not impressed with, might he add.
Ryder has to admit, if he had to choose between watching Hayden and Liam kiss for the rest of his life, and being mauled by the Beast.
Well...He'd choose the beast.
"Ry?" Lydia snaps in front of his eyes. Which startles the boy back to reality. "What?" He snaps, to which she gives him a small smile. "How ya holding up?" She says quietly, nodding her head in the direction of Liam and Hayden, who were literally so close to snogging. Ryder internally cringes, and shrugs. "Fine." Lydia rolls her eyes and sighs.
"Listen, you can talk to me. You know you can. You know that I'll be here for you. Just like I know your not really all that fine" It's Ryder's turn to sigh, and he does. Dramatically. "I will be fine." He tells the girl in front of him, who tucks a strawberry blonde strand of hair behind her ear before giving him a sympathetic smile. "I know." Lydia says, before she turns her attention to Scott and Stiles, who are approaching with snacks.
"Hey, what are you guys talking about?" Stiles asks, taking a seat beside Ryder and Scott. Ryder shrugs. "Nothing."
"Any ideas on who the beast is?" Lydia asks Scott, who shrugs, and looks at Ryder and Stiles for any guesses from them. "No idea." Stiles and Ryder say in unison. Before looking at each other. Lydia lets out a small chuckle. "Well. I'll be back." She says before getting up, probably to go to the bathroom.
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The lacrosse game wasn't going too good. They were losing, and bad. Devenford was kicking BHHS' ass. Ryder was trying his hardest to play using normal strength, not his werewolf strength. He was doing good.
No one was pissing him off besides Hayden cheering for her boyfriend. But that's besides the point. Isn't it? The point is, their losing. And they need to find out who the beast is, tonight.
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By now, Ryder is off for a bit, taking the chance to check on Stiles and Scott. Who are nowhere to be found. It's almost the end of the match and Devenford has officially kicked BHHS' ass. Officially.
Right when he hears the whistle signaling the end of the match, Ryder is on his feet and at Liam's side. Who tells him that Mason and Corey just searched through the Devenford bus. He explains what Corey said to him, and is almost in tears by the end of it. "Liam, hey." Ryder shushes the boy. "He's gonna be okay. We're gonna help him." Liam nods slowly, and Ryder pulls him into a protective hug. One which Liam returns instantly. "I promise we'll save him."
So Mason is the beast.
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hey jealousy || Liam Dunbar
Fanfiction"Your a little crazy, Canova" "Your not so sane yourself, Dunbar" The one where Ryder Canova moves to Beacon Hills, trying to move on from a past he can't change. He meets Liam Dunbar, a boy who just wants to be recognized for more than his anger. c...
