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Clyde of the dead 💀
I'm such an idiot ! Why did I say that? Oh yeah....cause I'm a idiot! I was tired I didn't mean to say that, what if he gets mad at me? What if he doesn't want to be friends anymore? Oh god I sound like tweek.
The worse part is he said something back but I didn't hear it. He probably said ' fuck you' or ' whatever Clyde'... actually I'm glad I didn't hear it, it probably would've broken my heart. Craig doesn't do love. What was I thinking.
Oh well...... he'll get over it right, I mean I only said " I love you"........ shit.
Kyle:" you ok Clyde you seem stressed out?"
Clyde:" yeah...fine, I'm not stressed what makes you think I'm stressed... cause I'm not I'm never stressed I'm Clyde Donovan, stress has never happened to me, never!"
Kyle gave me a 'seriously' look.
Kyle:" then would you please stop pacing back and forth mumbling 'I'm a idiot' and ' shit, why did I say that'."
Shit I was saying that out loud.
Kyle" you said that out loud too."
Clyde:" Well I'm sorry I'm having a mental breakdown right now!"
Kyle:" ok Clyde whatever you did u need to calm down.... look tweeks asleep so why don't you just talk to me. Tell me what's wrong I might be able to help Clyde"
He smiled sweetly and patted the seat next to him. I sigh and sit down. I instantly put my face in my hands and start mumbling.
Clyde:" Kyle how do I fix this?"
Kyle:" you ask me as if I know what happened"
Clyde:" cut the shit Kyle I know you know!"
He chuckled in defeat.
Kyle:" fair enough. I'm mean you talk to yourself a lot do you really think no one will notice and hear what your saying?"
He's got a point I've been told I talk in my sleep and I already know I talk to myself a lot when I'm anxious. God dam I'm a idiot sometimes.
Clyde:" Kyle? If you had a crush on someone what would you do?"
He blushed a little. He was clearly thinking about something or someone. It was delaying his answer but I didn't care.
Kyle:" well.... knowing me I would probably be a baby about it, but you shouldn't be like me. You should be you, you should be Clyde. You need to tell him... but properly. We don't know how long we have left and we all know we're not gunna live very long in this world, so make your last moments in it happy and if craig makes you happy spend as much of it with him. Tell him before you lose the chance to, or you might regret it."
Wow. I did not expect that. He's right, God knows how long we have before something goes wrong. But then again what if telling him has the opposite effect. What if it just means he'll stay away from me. Then I'll never be happy.
Clyde:" I... don't know. What if he just avoids me more"
Kyle:" dude I literally think craig is obsessed with you I doubt he would ever avoid you even if it meant he would be risking his life"
I look up at him he's smiling to himself looking up.
Clyde:" I think you should follow your own advice Kyle....you give it all to others then forget about yourself"
He blushed and looked at me confused.
Clyde:" don't act so naive kyle... I was talking to Kenny-"
Kyle:" to Kenny!? Oh shit what did he say?"
Clyde:" calm down, we were just saying how nice you and Stan are together.... and then we..... errr"
He seemed slightly annoyed.
Kyle:" you what Clyde? Tell me!"
Clyde:" alright alright! We just... made a bet."
Kyle:" omg are you serious... let me guess on me and Stan?"
I nervously rubbed the back of me neck and anxiously looked in the other direction.
Kyle:" Clyde!"
Clyde:" it's not a big deal dude it's just a bet.... why are you getting all defensive? It's just that you two really care for each other and that's so sweet. All I'm saying is your the smart one. Your constantly focused on other people's problems you forget about your self. Why do u think we took so long getting my jacket? We saw you finally dealing with your own emotions hugging the one person who helps you. The one person who you don't feel like you need to someone strong infrount of. Kyle we love you dude. You help us all so much constantly putting your own feelings aside, but you don't have to do that all the time, like you just said " if he makes you happy spend as much time as you can with him" so stop denying yourself, you deserve each other, you deserve to be happy. You like him and we can all see it, your more love sick then me! And that's saying a lot. You don't have to keep pretending Kyle, take it from the crybaby that it's better to let emotions out, we already know your strong you can stop trying to prove yourself. You have feelings your not craig. For your own good Kyle... admit it to yourself that you deserve him, because you do."
He had tears streaming from his eyes. I pulled him into a hug and let him cry it out for a bit. I did not know how deep I could be. But I think I want to help Kyle more, right know I'm going to focus on him and his happiness before mine. Craig will have to wait, I owe Kyle so much more. Starting with now.