Bought.

Eleven.

Today is October 28th it's my birthday, I was woken up by my Gran, Shawn, and June.

June's Dad, James got better and June visits most of the time. Shawn and June sang happy birthday to me, and my Gran made me a cake it was chocolate and she had written in beautiful writing 'Happy Birthday Jade! :)' I was happy.

Then Shawn said "Are you excited for today?", "Yes! of course I am", "Great so what time do yu have to go pick up your dress?", "At 12pm", "Oh ok" then I got up and went to brush my teeth.

I had brushed my teeth, then I washed my face.

I then brushed my hair it was still long, I had just cut the ends. Fred wanted me to cut my hair, like I had cut it before. But I rejected because, he always says that he likes it, then sometimes he says to cut it so I just ignore him.

I changed my clothes, I took out light denimed highwaisted short overalls, and a navy blue cropped knitted cami. Then I was gonna wear white nike hightops.

Then I just put on mascara and cherry colored baby lips. I then started going downstairs, then my Grandmother said "sweetie look...you got a package from Calum", "......" I had just looked at her and opened the package.

It had old pictures of when I with him, I saw a picture I liked...he was hugging me and kissing my cheek.

I was smiling.

Then I saw under the pictures there was a bear. There was a note on the bear, I started reading it.

"Jade....do you remember this bear? I gave it to you for your birthday, I gave it to you along with a promise ring.

I promised that I will never leave your side and will get married with you, then you said for use to get married when you were 17, I need you...I need your smile, your shyness, your voice, your touch, your scent, I need you beside me.

And Happy Birthday.

Love, Calum"

I started crying, I put my hands to my face and took my longboard that was by the door and my book bag. I ran out and went longboarding I just needed to escape. I longboarded far, I stopped at this lake I was alone. I just screamed saying "WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME! WHY CALUM!" I just had enough of life.

I just started crying, It was kind of chilly. I checked in my bookbag, I had a grey cardigan so I put it on. Then I felt a hand onmy shoulder...I saw it was Shawn.

"Jade are you ok? Just hold on watch I don't think that child is Cal-" I just kissed him. Shawn then put his arms around my waist, and kissed me I wanted to see if I still felt something for Shawn.

So I can move on from Calum, we never know that child could be his. And he has to be with Allie so the child doesn't have to be seperated from his/her Dad.

Then Shawn parted and said "Jade do you like me?", "I don't know Shawn because...I am trying so hard to forget Calum but I can't! 9 months have passed and I can't!" He hugged me.

Shawn was comprehensive, he knew how to read me completely because we knew eachother since we were 5. I then got a group text and it was from Luke, Mikey, Ash. I didn't meet Mikey and Ash while I was in LA because Calum didn't want me to meet them.

"Happy Birthday Butt face" said Mikey

"Happy birthday!!! :))" said Ashton

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY JADE!!! XD" said Luke

I responded saying "Thanks yu guys I miss yu guys so much"

M: "Don't worry yu will see us soon if time let's us"