Pain In Love

#16

Chapter 16

"I SWEAR TO THE FUCKING GOD SPENCER!! I AM NOT CHEATING ON YOU!! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT IT THAT IT'S JUST A CLIENT!!!! FOR FUCK SAKE!" I heard mom yelled inside the house.

I'm already done dealing with school and now home?

I sighed as i heard the argued was getting louder and louder. As soon as i open the door, a big crash sound was echoing.

"SPENCER!!! THAT WAS MOM'S GREATEST POT!!!WHAT THE FUCK WRONG IS WITH YOU!!!!"

"HAH SERVE YOU RIGHT KATTY!! DO YOU THINK I AM THAT STUPID NOW? CLIENT MY ASS! I KNEW IT HE WAS YOUR SCANDAL!!! IF YOU GET TIRED OF ME NOW WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME!!!HUH? I COULD JUST DIVORCED YOU RIGHT NOW!!! TELL ME!!!!" Their voices getting louder until i can feel the mirrors are going to broke any sooner.

Tears filling my eyes as i glance at the both of my parents. They looked up on me with an anger and fire on they're eyes. I can't take it anymore.

"APPA EOMMA STOP PLEASE STOPPPP I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS!! ENOUGH WITH SCHOOL DRAMAS AND NOW THE BOTH OF YOU? WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE?!!!!! I KNOW Y'ALL NEVER GONNA EVEN MISS ME OR EVEN BOTHER TO LOOK FOR ME!! FUCK SAKE STOP THIS!! DO YOU EVER THINK OF HOW MY LIFE WAS IN THE SCHOOL HUH?? DO YOU GUYS EVER KNOW HOW HURT I AM IN SCHOOL???!! DO YOU GUYS EVER THINK OF HOW MY FEELINGS WAS WHEN BOTH OF YOU YELLING TO EACH OTHER?!!! YOU DON'T!! YOU'RE NOTT!!!! YOU GUYS JUST LET IT OUT TO EACH OTHER AS IF I'M AN INVISIBLE DAUGHTER! AS IF I'M DIED!!! STOP JUST STOP THIS!!!!" I screamed on top of my lungs,letting all the voices and pain that i kept for a months out.

I can't do this anymore,i'm tired. The both of them gave me a soft look.

"Just stop.." i mumble,taking a heavy breath in between.

As soon as i realized both of them didn't have anything to replied or said to me,i made my way to my bedroom and lock them. I cried myself out for the first time after a month which make it last longer that i ever cried before.

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For almost 3 days,i didn't went out. I didn't even bother to eat,beside for the snacks and other junk food that i have in my room. I didn't even bother to went to the school. I didn't even bother to showered either.

Called me whatever you guys want to but that's the reality.

Every hour, i wasted it for me think and think. How can i get myself back? How can i stand up on my feet again? How can i defense myself from the pain?. I can't hear anymore arguments too, sometimes mom will knock and asked me to go out but i don't. Which make her gave up.

After a while thinking and i finally made a decision.

I jumped out of my bed and open the curtains letting the light get through of my room.

I'm done with a heart break,i'm done being such a pathetic. Sooner or later i will faced him anyway,i will faced this even when i don't want to. I have to be strong, i have to let it go. But first let's get rid of the hygiene that i ignored this passed few days.

I went to my standing mirror and gasped.

Oh god.

The girl who used to be so cheerful and laughed turned to be a girl that are look like someone who had tried a drug all around the world.

I can barely even recognize myself,with the black puffy eyes,chapped lips and pale face. My hair looks like a burned uncooked spaghetti, more and more pimples are growing on my face. I feel disgusting. I feel like i just lose my virginity, when i'm not. My body and hair smells so stink.

I wasted no time and strip off my clothes,having a good cold shower. I take my time to showered and shaved and clean my disgusting self and to get rid of the sadness and pain in me.

After 15 minutes,i wear my matching sweat shirt and shorts and twisted my towel on my hair to get it dried. I look at the bathroom mirrors and smiled. I washed my face with my facial foam and brushed my teeth.

As soon as i clean myself, i decided to cleaned up my room. The view of my room is disgustingly ugly. Box of pepero are laying everywhere, the cokes can and the doritos chips are flowing around the floor.

Geez, rin what got into you seriously.

I started to pick up the clothes and put them away to the dirty clothes bin. And i spend my Tuesday by cleaning my room and starting a new start. A new fresh start.

After like a good 5 hours of struggling, i breath out a satisfied sighed. I could barely see the sparkles around my room. I smiled to myself as fluffy snuggles between my legs. Fluffy had been with me for the whole 3 days,but i didn't even paid any attention to him.

Suddenly i feel sorry for him and my friends,i should make it up to them. I have to talk to them,i have to let it out. They deserve it.Then suddenly a name flashed in my head.

Jeremy Hail.

Him. I haven't talked to him for a while now. I guess i have to talk to him too. Specifically,broke up with him. I can't just keep using him,i can't just make him wait for me. I can't just date with someone that I don't like. But first the bunnies.

I looked at my wall clock and it says 12:30 pm which means school were already dismissed. I sat on the corner of my bed grab my newly phone because of my other old phone were damaged.

I scrolled down onto my contacts and when i found the name,i waste no time and pushed the called button. I put my phone on my ears as it rings a few seconds.

She answered right after with a surprised voice "Oh my gosh Rin? Hello?" I heard a gasp and yelled on the background. Dorks.

I chuckled and smiled "Coffee Bean,1 pm. All of you" i simply said and they all exclaimed and squeals.

I chuckled again and end the called. I make my way to change my outfit to a hoodie and ripped jeans.

It's time.

To be continued...

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