Pain In Love

#17

Chapter 17

"GAAAH Rinnnn!!" A scream of a fangirls could be heard from 20 miles away from Coffee Bean's downtown.

I know i know, just like i said last time my life is full of embarrassment.

They wasted no time after stepping into the cafe and threw me a big bear hugs,making other costumers in the cafe to gave me a look.

I smiled at them awkwardly and i patted my friends on their back signaling to let me go.

"It's just 3 days" i said and blow my hair that are on my nose. Each one of them took a seat with a grinned that never left they're faces.

"3 days my ass it's been 1 months and 3 days!! i gotta admit it that days without the Rin Adelia Park are very sucks" Nasyi replied soon after with a pout.  You're might asking why she always says 'my ass', well it's her thing just like me and Ver. 'I'm the big head', Veronica 'the big butt' and Nasyi 'my ass'

I chuckled and shrugged "We'll i'm here aren't i?" I said and they let out a sighed.

Jessica shot me a soft look "Don't you ever dare to act like those behaviour ever again" She said.

I pursed my lips into a thin line,thinking hard.

Am i going to be like that again? Turning the whole world around me down?

I smiled and replied "I try" with a small smile.

They smiled from ear to ear that makes guilty hit me like a train. I shouldn't have done that to them right?

"We gonna talk so long now shouldn't you guys order something or what?" I asked with a frowned realizing that they didn't ordered anything yet.

They shook their heads gesturing a 'no' to me with a teasing smile, i snorted "Yeah right as if I didn't know you guys huh? I know i've been out for 1 months—"

" and 3 days!" Nasyi exclaimed.

Triah smack her on the shoulder that make her yelp, i rolled my eyes and continued " and no you're not gonna just stared at me with no foods and drink and grinding till your cheeks tear off, now go get your meals now shoohh shooh"

They groaned, stood up immediately i assumed as they realised they were starving. Veronica threw her heads on the air before taking the same action as the others.

"Cold Rin is even better than the grumpy one" i heard she muttered.

I gave her a glare and threw a handful of burned chips on her which she catches professionally and she shoved them to her mouth. I'm not really wasting food since it's the burned one.

Who ate burned chips anyway?

"Its a category of food too okay" Veronica yelled from the counter,which make me gritted my teeth.

It's been so long that I haven't killed anyone now.

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"So tell me, what is going on with you? Why the sudden change last 1 months ago? What's wrong?" Triah decided to be the first one to talk after the comfortable silence of eating.

They others already turned they're full attention to me waiting for my response.

I took a deep breath "Obviously one of the reason is because of him but honestly guys i don't even know either" I sighed, playing with my slender fingers that have been a bad habit of me when i'm nervous.

"It's like.. suddenly your feeling took control of yourself,of your life. And you just let them be because you can't do anything" i smiled bitterly at the thought of this passed few days.

They eyed me up trying to understand my explanation. I licked my bottom lips "You guys should not experience any of these don't ever think of trying to feel what i feel either. I swear It's not normal —no it's something very dangerous. It plays your mind and heart and mess up your whole life. It can ruin your life."

Nasyi exhaled heavily "that's complicated" i nodded in response "You have no idea Nasyi"  i lean on the chair

"What i don't get is why does it hurts so much? Why does it feel so suffering and pain? Hell i never feel anything before. It's like someone just shot me straight to the heart gaah i don't even know why i ignore all of you...for 1 months!! And Jeremy..." i sighed as i remember about Jeremy,is he okay? Is he fine?

"I don't think i can do this anymore. I'm gonna break up with him."

They're eyes went wide like an owl "w-what break up?!" Veronica stuttered.

I groan shaking my head "I can't just use him to move on from Zach!! I can't just make him feel like a punching bag! Guys i'm not asking your permission. I'm telling you i'm done with him. Its the best, for him. For me."

"I guess she's right Veronica. Jeremy is hurting too you know Rin." Said Nasyi and i sighed.

"So all of this is Hakimi fault?" Veronica asked in confusions. I shook my head and about to replied but then Jessica cut me off.

"It's not Hakimi, Ver. It's called love. This is what love do, hurting and giving people pain but at the same time a happiness"

I pursed my lips together before nodding "Guess love just ruin my whole life" i said and smiled sadly.

They all sighed "But i'm glad you wake up no not wake up realised! Seriously this passed few weeks, it feels weird. It felt like you're turning into someone different. Not to mentioned those same clothes all over again and that hair GOD. I thought i just talked with some another creatures." Triah gulped and I laughed dryly.

"One, it's about love second is my parents..they're kinda drifted apart you know? The same day that i saw the video, it was also the same day that they started to argue. Or maybe they have been done this and i'm too blind to noticed it?" I shrugged, Jessica patted me on my back gently.

"You know that we're always here. If you need a call you can just ring us okay? We're all ears on" Jessica soothe me and both Triah and Nasyi hold both of my hands that were shaking since i prevent myself from breaking down.

"Maybe talking is not so bad. Especially with y'all dorks." I admitted and chuckled sadly.

They burst out a high pitched laughed and i open my arms wide and they all hugged me.

Another sad day huh?

To be continued...

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