Love Trauma

Bearing Your Child

School bell rings and all the students rush out to go home. Lisa packs all her books and pens in her bag. She looks around as she opens her front pocket of her bag and looks at these long sticks with some type of dark green powder in it. She looks at it for a long time as she thinks to herself if she was to make the right decision or not. She takes a deep breathe and zippes her bag. She carries her bag out the school and out the front gates. She rushes to cross the streets and jaywalks, a car almost hit her but she kept walking because she knew the car will brake anyways. She looked at the driver and continued walking. She turn the corner. She looks at her watch and it seems like she is waiting for someone to show up.

"Yo Lisa, you have my shit?" The dude spoke to her as he combs his fingers through his dark blue hair.

Lisa didn't care to answer and scoffs as she digs in her bag for the white sticks earlier. "Here, 7 blunts." she threw his weed at him for him to catch. He catches it and analyzes them. "Not bad, here." He handed her a bundle of money. She takes it and counts it.

"That's 500 alright, no need to be counting shit." He said as he walked away.

Lisa let out a sigh and turned around. There standing was a blonde.

"Really Lisa? Why didn't you ask me to hand it over to Seungkwan? You could've got caught." The blonde said.

"You think that I can't do it? All you ever do is look down on me as if I can't do it." Her eyebrows frowned as she speaks up for herself.

"That's not what I'm saying. I'm just worried about you. I'm scared--" He put his hands on her arms.

"Don't be afraid. I'm stronger and smarter than you think. If anything you should be scared for yourself. Expelled? Nice going." She pushed back as his hands lost grip of her arms.

"I didn't do it. It was Jeongh--"

"Yeah right. I'm done with all your dumb lies Minghao. There's never a time where you would ever consider anything." Her voice got louder and louder as she spoke her mind and inner feelings towards him.

"What are you talking about Lisa?" He changed his posture as he started to get worked up.

"You know exactly what I am talking about."

"I don't know what the hell you're talking about. I can't believe the shit you put me through after I have been there for you."

"Ha! You think you've been there for me? Where were you when I needed you the most. When I found out I was bearing your child, you went MIA on me for almost a week."

"I had so much on my plate so I couldn't be there for you."

"Oh really. I bet you didn't even know I had a miscarriage." Lisa stepped forward with anger written all over her face. She and Minghao's face was 5 inches apart. His expression froze as he heard the sad news of his unborn child. Lisa's eyes got teary.

"How long?" He looked into her eyes with guilt.

"A month now." Her mouth barely moved as she spoke.

"I'm sorry Lisa, I-I---"

"You're sorry that your pull out game was too weak? Or are you sorry that you couldn't own up to what you made? Cause that all just sounds like a pussy to me." A tear dropped from her left eye. She walked and hit his left shoulder. He stood there as his girlfriend just broke up with him. She walked as she strongly held in her tears. She stopped as she saw her own pair of shoe in front of her. Rose holding a napkin towards her. Lisa looked at her in surprised. She wasn't used to anyone giving her attention.

"Here." Rose smiled as she stood there waiting for Lisa to take it.

Lisa sniffled as she walked passed her, giving her the cold shoulders. Rose grabbed Lisa's forearm and she turned around. She looked at her for 3 seconds. Lisa looked at her arm and back at her. Rose dropped her arm and awkwardly tucked her bangs behind her ear. "I didn't mean to eavesdrop, I was just walking and I just happen to--"

"Don't tell anyone please." Lisa cut her off before she can say another word.

Rose nodded her head as a sign that she will keep it to herself. "If you ever need anything, or someone to talk to I am here." She shrugged her shoulders.

"Thanks. Don't crease my shoes, it can get ugly." Lisa smiled as she walked away.

Rose smiled as she also felt bad for her. She didn't know that Lisa had feelings. Of course everyone has feelings but she didn't know Lisa was capable of taking in pain. Guess there is more to Lisa for Rose to figure out. She turned around and there Minghao was standing there piercing his eyes at her. He walked towards her as she walks backward.

"Did you hear what we spoke of?" he continuously walked towards her until she hit a brick wall and can no longer back up. He slam his palm on the wall to scare her. "Did you hear me or are you deaf?"

Rose looked down as she was frightened of him. "Ye-yes."

"You better not fucking say a single word. If you do, I will burn that little pretty face of your's." He threatens her as he tilts his head.

"Hey get away from her!" A gentleman ran over.

"Keep that damn mouth shut." Minghao walked away as he mugged the gentleman.

"Hey are you okay?" The gentleman asked.

"Ugh yeah, I'm totally fine." She tucked her hair behind her ear.

"He is dangerous, so stay away from him?" he said.

"I'm sorry who are you?" she questioned.

"I'm Joshua. I have English Public Speaking with you. You're the one with the Aussie accent right?"

"Oh yeah, you sit right behind me." Rose chuckled.

"What was all that about? Did you do something wrong?"

"Ah no, everything is fine. He mistaken me for someone else."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah, we girls all look alike." She coughed out a laugh.

"Aha. Maybe. Well you should get going before it gets late. We should study together sometime. I remember there's a test this Friday. You free tomorrow?" He asked as he took out a pen.

"Ah yeah I'm free tomorrow." She smiled. She felt so happy for once in her life.

"Here's my number. Text me. See you tomorrow." Joshua wrote his number on her hand and gently hit her shoulder and got into his car.

She stared at her hand for the longest time and continued to walk home.

Is this gentleman the light to her happiness or will he be the dark hole that keeps feeding the emptiness.