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six months had passed since jonah had left for college. overtime he missed more of their phone calls and text messages.
corbyn had eventually given up on jonah. it hurt but it was okay. he had his dad and that was all he needed in life.
corbyn besson had accepted his fate. he was destined to be alone for life. when he thought back to all of his failed friendships the list went on and on.
he missed jonah more than anything. he wished he could back in time and reply all of their conversations. redo the moments over and over again until he finally got them right.
corbyn besson was not the same person he had been six months ago. he would go onto his phone and see the photos that jonah would take with his new friends. they seemed to be having the time of their lives.
corbyn had promised himself that he would move on. he knew that it wasn't the best for him to be caught up in the past. still he found his mind drifting to thoughts about jonah.
today it was worse than ever. it was the third year anniversary of when corbyn had come out. he didn't want to hide his feelings from his then best friend.
he still remembered exactly what had happened.
they were sitting up in jonah's bedroom and doing homework. jonah could see that something had been off about corbyn the past few days. his friend was rarely sad and when he was it was bad.
corbyn loved science, it was his favorite subject but today he was struggling to do his work for it. the chemical formula scribbled down on his paper looked like a mess of letters.
he couldn't focus right now. he had to tell jonah but now wasn't the time. there was no way that jonah would ever accept him.
"corbs what's wrong, i know there's something and don't give a bullshit answer." jonah rarely swore which made corbyn know that he was being dead serious. "fine but if i tell you please don't hate me." "i would never hate you." concern flashed across jonah's eyes. "i think i'm gay."
corbyn looked down and tried to place all of his energy into his homework. it felt good telling jonah his biggest secret but at the same time he was more scared than he had ever been.
then corbyn felt the warm arms that he had become accustomed to wrap around his body. jonah placed his chin on corbyn's shoulder and whispered in his ear.
"i would never hate you for that. being gay isn't a choice and neither is love. you just have to promise me that when you get a crush you tell me who he is." corbyn laughed as he looked at his friend. "of course i will."
he didn't have the nerve to say that he already had a crush and it was the boy looking at him right now.
corbyn didn't want to admit it but his crush on jonah had never fully gone away. it had slowly gone down but then they would go swimming together and corbyn would remember all of his feelings.
he had tried to deny it thousands of times but he just couldn't. jonah had shown him unconditional love and support. or so he thought.
now corbyn was struggling to remember the sound of his friend's voice. he missed jonah's love and friendship. for the first time in his life corbyn was alone.
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big plans is a fucking bop and don't tell me otherwise
