read this if you want I'm sure no one would tho.

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Am I a disappointment? Do you hate me? Why does everyone hate me? I don't want to be here you will just leave me like everyone else does. They always leave. I'm sure you guys regret ever talking to me. You guys just feel bad for me so you just say nice things about me to make me feel better. I wish everything would stop. I wish life could go back to the way it was. I don't like being confused. I don't want to think. I want to feel happy and wake up knowing someone cares but that feeling is now gone. No one likes me. They're just trying to be nice. But in reality they don't want be nice. They want to leave and talk to someone better. Someone who would stop complaining about the things that bother them and what they wished would change about the world. They just want me to shut up. I'll give everyone exactly what they want. I'll shut up.

Blame school for this. Blame the boy who called me useless. Blame the girl who hates me. Blame the girl who calls me ugly every day and doesn't even want to look at my direction. Blame the kid who pushed me everyday all those years ago. Blame the kids in the hall way for pushing me around and making fun of me. Blame the group of kids who would laugh at me. There are many people to blame. But I deserve this. There's more to it but I won't say. That's too much of a personal thing for me. I'm just such a bad person.