Wrapped Up Feelings

Im stupid

I'm really stupid. I let him go and it always seems like I'm the one running back and apologizing, and you know what it f****ing hurts to know that I love someone who doesn't love me back yeah I was in denial for a while but I came to realize that I ended up loving someone who's not capable of loving me back and it hurts to know that. All I'm saying is I love this person but I'm not in love with this person.

It's like I would have gave this person my all but it still wouldn't be enough lol I'm saying that I mistaken loving them with being in love with them I wish I could have known sooner I think I would have been happier than I am and I think you would've been happy too I wish things would have went better I wish you were here for my hard times and I wish I was there for yours but now I can't change any of that

If Only I didn't make that mistake maybe things would have been better between us maybe we could've have been laughing with each other instead of without, if I kept my feelings to myself would things be less complicated

Would I still be hurt in the end?
Would you end up hurt in the end?
was this all a test?
Why can't I let you go?