The Death of Her

Chapter one: Introduction

"Why do you always run from me and the truth of our past? " Is a question she always asks me. I never know how to answer because to tell you the truth, I don't really know. I guess I'm scared of what people will think. Everyone one I care about my family, friends, and most importantly my ex Madeline. I can't stand the thought of them knowing. My life would be ruined no one will ever think of me the same.For them to know of what I did to her, I didn't mean it and I regret it everyday of my life. I'm a horrible person, I hate who I became with this secret always on my mind. If only I had handled it differently if only. 

I wake up my body shaking from the same nightmare as always. I can never escape it or her, I feel tears run down my face as her face appears in my head. I gasp over and over as if I had been drowning. I look at my alarm its six o'clock I know its time to get up but I don't want to go to school. I dread going to school because I don't really want to see all of the friends I pushed away. I might as well get the day over with though.The sooner I get up and get to school the sooner I can get back home. I head to the bathroom, jump in the shower, wash my hair and my body quickly. I grab a towel jump out run to my room as fast as I can. I grab some random pair of jeans ,a t-shirt, and change into them quickly. I run out of my room and towards the stairs but as I'm running down the stairs I run into my younger sister Scarlet we both hit the ground hard. 

" Ugh shit Slade really like really!" She shouts with anger in her eyes.

"Sorry Scar I was in a hurry, I didn't wanna be late for school." I say while getting up. I offer her my hand she gladly takes it.

" Just watch where your going next time okay?" Scarlet says guilty.

"Ok Scar I really am sorry it really is my fault sorry." I say sadly not really sory for running into her but what I've done to  her.

"No I'm sorry Slade its my fault too we need to get down stairs we have to hurry up and eat or will be late!" She says a little to angrily but it sounds as if she's talking about something else.

We both hurry downstairs and as we do I think of how much we look-alike. Same brown hair and brown eyes ,my sister is one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen besides Madeline and "her". Scarlet has been mad at me since she died , and she had every right too. I blame myself for her death it's all my fault I wish I could have stopped it, but sadly I can't go back in time.After I get downstairs , I grab a plate of waffles and some syrup. Then pour me some milk, when I sit down I hear my little sister Kamaria come down the stairs She is only twelve years old but you can already tell how pretty she'll be when she's older, with her gorgeous brown hair and blue-green eyes.

"Hey Sladey ." She says giggling. "

"Hey my little angel come here." I say with a smile.

She runs over with open arms and hugs me. Kamaria is the only person who can make me truly smile if it weren't for her I wouldn't be here now.

" I love you Sladey." She says as she pulls back at arm's length.

" Love you to angel." I say as I let go of her arm's.

" Do you have to go to school now?" Kamaria asks.

"Yeah sorry angel ,but I'll hang out with you after school.

" "Promise?" She questions.

"Promise." I say as I plant a kiss on her forehead.

On my way out I stop by my mom's office to see her asleep on a pile of paperwork as usual. This is one of thing's in my life that actually stayed the same. My mom and dad divorced when I was fourteen and my dad took all his money with him. That left my mom with us three kids and tons of bills to pay. She was always working her hardest ,so we could have money for college and other imporant things.

" Mom it's time to wake up." I say shaking her awake.

She looks up at me with a sleepy smile or a fake sleepy smile anyways. Though work had worn my mother down she was still just as beautiful as my sisters. She has brown hair that was starting to grey and blue-green eyes. My mom probably could find another husband in seconds, but she never had time to date. I wish I could earn a lot of money so she didn't have to work at all and could focus on herself and not us. I told her this once but she just smiled, and said that she didn't mind taking care of us and that she loved us very much. We are her world even though she said this honestly and not with a tone of regret, I still think she deserves some time to herself.

" Bye mom I'm heading out to school." I say quickly before she can ask if I got enough sleep last night.

"Okay bye hunny love you and Slade ?" She asks.

" Yeah mom?" I ask with dread afraid she's going to question the bags under my eyes.

" Try to make new friends." She says as gently as she can.

" I'll try ." I lie and give her the best smile I can muster. Then I walk out the door and to my car where my sister Scarlet is waiting for me, and she gives me her usual look of hatred. I rather have her look of hatred than the looks of sympathy I get since everyone seems to think I was in love with" her". That was the reason why I was depressed and dropped my old friends when the truth is I'm the cause of her suicide.

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I'm sorry it was short I'll try to make the next chapter longer another quote on the side. I know this story is rather depressing but don't worry it gets better later on :}