ˢʸᵐᵖʰᵒⁿʸ ᵒᶠ ᴾᵃⁱⁿ ➻ 𝐉𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐡 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐬

Chapter 8: childhood

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Memories
Shawn Mendes
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" Let's hang our pictures on the wall
All these precious moments

That we carved in stone
Are only memories after all "

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‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　Melody　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

I woke up on an unfamiliar bed with an unfamiliar blanket and an unfamiliar pillow. I lifted my head up groggily, rubbing my eyes and searching for my phone. I couldn't find it anywhere except my eyes fell on the small alarm clock the wrote 11:58 pm. I sighed and sat up quietly, scanning the room that was pitch black, except a dark figure that was seemingly trying to put his shoes on.

"Jonah?" I whispered, squinting my eyes to make out the mysterious figure. The figure stopped and turned to me, a sheepish smile on his face. He waved slightly while backing up.

"Jonah what are doing?" I asked once again, slipping out of the covers. I somehow had one of Jonah's grey hoodies over my body, reaching mid-thigh. Underneath i just had my clothes from today, at least he didn't take my clothes off.

Jonah gulped, reaching for the handle and carrying a bag slung across his shoulder. He opened the door as i approached him, trying to get answers. Jonah backed up the corridor and as he was about to make a run for it, i grabbed his hand. Now we were fully out our dorm where we could easily get busted by a teacher. I didn't care, i was so frustrated with him leaving at the middle of the night.

"Jonah i know you've been going out everyday" I pressed on, holding his arm. Jonah looked around frantically, trying to somehow loosen my grip around his arm while not hurting me at the same time.

"Its so frustrating! You can't just sneak out and expect everything to be absolutely fine!" I raised my voice slightly, causing shuffling to be heard from a few doors away. Jonah looked around once again, using more force to pry off my hand but he was still very gentle, which gave me the upper hand of gripping on his arm firmer. He soon gave up and came closer to me, holding a finger to his lips.

"Dont tell me to shush. What do you even hide in that bag of yours—" Jonah put his hand over my mouth, trying to stop me talking. I pushed his hand off and glared at him, continuing to ramble "Jonah if you're doing illegal things just tell me!" Jonah shook his head violently, his eyes pleading

"I wouldn't tell anyone, you know that" i continued. Jonah started doing these weird hand gestures, probably telling me to shut up. But i am not shutting up if there's a prime opportunity to find out the truth.

"i deserve to know what's happening Jonah. I'm not letting you get away with this once aga—" Jonah sucked in a deep breath and before i knew it, his lips were on mine. I was so startled i took a few steps back, letting my hands drop to my side as he held his hand to my cheek, closing his eyes. The kiss lasted longer than i would have expected from someone like Jonah. He had one arm on my waist and he kept moving, making my feet move with his, stumbling back quite a few steps.

Jonah abruptly pulled away, looking at me with a 'sorry' look and slammed the door. I was inside our dorm now, the kiss still lingering on my lips. My eyes were huge and my jaw was basically dropped to the ground. I didn't know how to react, it's just the fact that frickin Jonah kissed me out of the blue.

What the actual fuck just happened...i shook my head, trying to get the picture out of my head. I walked over to my bed, slipping in and trying to fall asleep, the thoughts resting in my mind. This is the second time I've been forced to kiss someone...except this time, i didn't have the will to pull back. My consciousness soon drifted out of me, leaving me with a bundle of questions.

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‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　Jonah　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

Why did i do that? I didn't know...well sort of. I needed her to shush and there was no way i could have gotten her to shut up unless i kissed her or else both of us would be busted. The other part...i kind of just wanted the feeling of her lips on mine. I've never had this type of affection with someone ever since my parents divorced until now, she's making me feel things i shouldn't. I feel bad for just kissing her without warning but she didn't necessarily pull away, she even sort of kissed back.

Maybe i've got a chance. No, you know you can't. I know, i can't, but i want to so damn badly. He's always watching, be careful. Dont let a girl get you back to where you started.

I sighed, carrying my bag full of things and heading to the one place i feel safe. I leapt up the flights of stairs, arriving at the roof of this school, the first time i shared a tender moment with the girl...and mostly likely the last. I went over to the vault that lead down to this secret room where i kept all my precious items.

I found this room not too long ago, and i claimed it to be my memories area. I was venturing around the roof until i stumbled over to this vault kind of thing on the ground, initially, it had a lock but after many years of undoing locks, i managed to crack it open.

There was a ladder that lead down to a small, rusty room with a single, brown couch, next to it is a tall lamp that the lightbulb was slightly cracked but the lighting still worked. I was able to work the heater that was broken since it hadn't been used in ages. There was also a cork board on once side of the wall, multiple photos pinned up in a line of my most treasured memories with my favourite people. I walked over to the cork board, picking up the photo of me when i was small, with another little kid...who was my sister.

I blinked, a tear slowly running down my face as the single tear drop hit my bracelet with black beads threaded onto a string. I took off the photo, a key dangling from the needle of the pin and dropping to the ground with a thud. I picked the key up and pinned the photo back to the original place. I then went over to a big metal box in the corner of the room, secured with a lock. I opened the metal box with a twist of a key and dunked the money i was able to steal today into it, quickly closing it off.

I didn't do quite well today...i was just off.

I was going to redecorate this room but never got the motivation, and i dont think I'm going to get the motivation any time soon.

I climbed back up the ladder, getting blasted with wind right in my face. I closed the vault and grabbed a candle, a pillow and a blanket, setting it up so i was comfortable. I sat wrapped up in warmth as i stared out into the same night sky i get greeted with every day. My eyes wandered everywhere, from each star to the elegant moon, smiling down at me.

"What if we have to say bwye bwye to each other...and never to hello again" my little sister sobbed into my chest. She was only 5...but she knew too well of what the cruel world was like.

"I promise we will say hello again, because i love you to the moon and back" i smiled at her. 6 year old me can never keep promises, especially ones that is the hard to make in the first place.

"Hey...you alright?" a voice said beside me. I jumped at the silence getting broken as i stared at her. Her luscious blonde hair blowing in the wind, her usual smile on her face and those lavender-blue eyes, those eyes that i can't get my mind off.

Those eyes that i can't help falling for.