late night thoughts - essays

23:00

So have you ever wanted to be contained? Ina small little spot, and asylum, a hospital? I have and I tend to whenever I get into ay foul mood because I genuinely want to be away from the world. I want to erase social media and social interaction in all. 

You see I don't know if this is normal, well I know it isn't but have any of you felt it? I want to know, I am curious. should I seek help? Not like it will do me good. I went to a therapist once with my mom and I really saw no point in it because she ( the therapist ) was saying all the stuff I had just said before coming in the office. 

Point is that something about being kept in a box makes sense to me., I have a need for that. Maybe for like a week so I can get my head together.  

I was gonna do research about this but all that came up was how dangerous confined spaces are for construction workers and how they have a hell of a lot of people in solitary confinement in prisons.  Since I am no construction worker nor am I in prison they did not fit me all that good. I guess I would need to go a specialist to learn the bottom of this taboo desire. 

So I did do sone research on depression. The reason why one would like to exclude themselves from people when feeling this way is that our society has made people who aren't happy "dysfunctional". When someone is ad other stand to look at them as if they have a disease. As if they are wrong for feeling this immense sadness. You see most people will experience some shape of clinical depression. Depression isn't a disease, it is merely temporary. You see the person experiencing this may be "stuck" somewhere/ in a situation that makes he or she feel bad and wrong. With this they tend to remove themselves from others around them because as I said before they are "dysfunctional" according to society. 

One mustn't look at the depression and say that they need to fix that, that isn't what is wrong. What is actually "wrong", in a sense, is how the person is treating themselves. They have started to think and treat themselves in a way that isn't fair and so they remove themselves from themselves (if that makes sense).  One, as a friend, most try to treats the person, not the depression. The depression isn't the problem, that is part of what that person is feeling. So for one to treat the depression is basically like removing fleas from a dog just to let them roll over on fleas again. Meaning the depression won't go away if you don't actually talk to the person, or if the person doesn't try to get better. You can't remove fleas if you don't wash and  treat the dogs skin. The fleas won't ever go away. 

So in the end what I'm trying to say that people will try to put themselves in a corner because they feel wrong about being sad. A person does this because society has made them out to be defective and wrong for feeling sad. There are many reasons, and situations that make one depressed. The way to end it isn't to treat the depression but the person, The person needs to remember what is out there and why they got that point in the first place. Take care of the person not the depression.