A feeling came to me and whispered hello
It touched me so mellow
I had to smile : )
There are many words to describe what I feel right now - sadness, sorrow, grief, loneliness, numbness, misery and woe - but none of those words feel right besides the word melancholy. Indeed, I feel many things at once but melancholy is something that has been prevalent for the past couple of days. I have observed that many of my friends have someone to turn to in their times of trouble, including me, of course. Adding to that, I noticed earlier on that I am incapable of letting myself find someone be my shoulder to cry on. I know I can rely on my friends but I feel like I don't really have the right to do so because I know they have suffered way worse than me, also later thinking to myself that they do not have an obligation to listen to my own worries. Yes, it's difficult to keep all these harsh thoughts to myself but lately, I, more or less, cope with it. Though at times there would be a particular song that unexpectedly comes up whenever I'm on YouTube, a wave of melancholy just washes over me and leads me to feel this unbearable sadness in my heart that just screams to me loudly as if to say that it hurts. Certainly it hurts, but it's nothing new. It's all just about smiling through the pain. There is no time to break down in tears, only to be left alone in the dark with no comfort. There is simply no time to be human.
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The Battlefield Within Me & Out
Poesia✫彡 Poetry, Excerpts & Short Stories ✫彡 bat·tle·field /ˈbadlˌfēld/ - a noun which is defined as the piece of ground on which a battle is or was fought. - also defines as a place or situation of strife or conflict.
