fuckboi // Emilio Martinez

38. Making Amends

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Third Person POV
A lot can happen in a month. Things can change. Things can stay the same. Emilio went back to his careless self, partying and getting drunk every night. Except this time he didn't enjoy himself like he did in the past. The only reason why he did it was to forget. Forget about Ellie.

During the day, he couldn't get her out of his head. She was all he ever thought about. Even when he was drunk. Although when he was drunk it made him hallucinate and see every girl as Ellie, which made sleeping with them easier. When he would wake up next to a random girl the next morning, reality would hit that it wasn't Ellie, and the cycle would continue.

He also hadn't been talking to his identical best friend since their infamous fight. This made Emilio really lonely, Ivan was still close with Ellie and spent a lot of time with her instead. He wasn't jealous of Ivan though. He knew Ivan wasn't dating her.

Because she already had a boyfriend.

Emilio didn't know who, he just overheard from a phone call between Ivan and Ellie.

He was laying in his bed trying to fall asleep. The one night he didn't go out. Earlier that day, he had another breakdown and was extremely exhausted from it. He kept having uncontrollable waves of sadness since that night. Sometimes they would last for 5 minutes, some even lasted an hour or more.

But this night was really bad, he couldn't even control his breathing and kept choking on the air he was taking in. So after he wiped his eyes and fixed his appearance, he went to bed to sleep his feelings away. He lay with his face parallel to wall and his blanket up to his chin, not wanting to be seen or bothered.

Until Ivan came into the room, talking into his phone. He noticed his older sibling was "sleeping" so naturally he continued his conversation.

"Yeah, hahah. Maybe next time you guys should try a fancy restaurant. You both seem like the perfect couple it only makes sense for you guys to do something special and romantic together. Plus you really like him, you never shut up about him!" he said smiling.

Emilio listened intently. Not that he needed to know about other people's lives. It just distracted him from his lonely one. Ivan paused while listening to the voice on his phone, waiting for them to finish.

"That sounds fun, let me know how it goes. Yea, kay, I'll let you go, talk to you tomorrow! Bye Ellie!" He ended happily.

Emilio put two and two together, and he wasn't happy. The one girl he cared deeply for, the one girl who could make him feel loved, the one person who made the real Emilio come back... didn't love him. She moved on.

He couldn't help but let new fresh tears roll down from his already red, irritated eyes. He just wanted her back. He didn't want this anymore. He didn't want this constant loneliness. He wanted his brother.

He just wanted someone.

It's been a week since Emilio heard that Ellie was in a relationship. He still didn't know who. He needed to talk to Ivan. To fix their relationship, and to find out what's up with Ellie. He was tired of feeling alone and anxious. He could talk to Bryson but he didn't want to drag another person into all of this. He also didn't want to look vulnerable in front of a new person.

Emilio sat in his empty bedroom just waiting for Ivan to come in. He nervously paced the room about fifty times, up and down from his bed constantly, wondering what to say.