Todoroki x Reader

part 4

" Yeah.. I guess we are. " I said, a small smile crossing my face. Deku pointed to the direction of the dorms.

" I'll be going now! I'll see ya later, I'm guessing. " Deku said and, like the dork he is, ran off.

" Heh. He is definitely a funny one. " I said underneath my breath. I walked towards the dorms too. I planned on just hanging out until everyone got back.

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I slid onto the couch with a small groan, putting my arm over my eyes. I could feel someone's presence near.

" Are you okay? You don't still feel sick do you..? " A slightly concerned voice said. I sat up, letting my arm fall to my side. I looked up at Deku, smiling.

" I'm fine, Just tired! " I said, and Deku nodded, his face a soft shade of pink, complimenting the freckles sprinkled across his pale face.

" Sorry for asking! " He said frantically, waving his hands from side to side.

" Ah! Your good, it was sweet of you to ask. " I said, trying to calm the boy down. He nodded and sat down on the couch next to me.

" So, why do you want to be a hero? " Deku asked, looking over at me. I looked down, biting my bottom lip.

" My parents have always pushed me way too hard at a very young age and well.. I want to show them I can be strong without them. I've always admired heros, saving people left and right. " I said, gripping the material of my pants. Deku noticed this.

" Should I not have asked..? " He said, his voice gentle like he was approaching a hurt animal.

" It's fine! I've gotten over it.. " I said, my voice coming to a soft whisper at the end. I really hadn't. It still hurt, knowing they didn't give a crap about me.

I shivered, pushing my hair out of my face and brushing the [ hair color ] [ hair length ] strands behind my ear. I could feel some tears run down my cheeks, falling onto my pants.

" Ah! Not okay, not okay, are you okay?! " Deku asked quickly, moving away slightly.

" She won't be okay, with all your yelling. She's antisocial. " A monotone voice said. I covered my face, biting my lip knowing who the voice belonged to. Todoroki.

I could feel the couch sink slightly as Todoroki sat next to me.

" She doesn't seem like the type to cry. What did you do? " Todoroki asked Deku. Deku put his hand behind his head uncomfortably.

" Umm.. Well.. I asked her about her past, and well.. Yeah, she started crying.. " Deku said nervously. Todoroki's eyes examined me.

" [ Name. ] I didn't know you were so fragile, but I know how you feel. We can talk about this in private, if you would like. " Todoroki offered. I looked up at him.

" O-Okay.. Let's go to your room, I guess.. Why were you out so long anyway? You didn't get hurt did you? " I asked. He got up, shaking his head.

" No, but I had to unfreeze a lot of people. " He said. I got up and Todoroki led me to his room. He opened the door. He sat on his bed, and I sat next to him. He looked at me, one of his eyes a dark grey and the other the most beautiful shade of blue I have ever seen. I had really never noticed them.

" I-I'm sorry you had to see me like that.. " I said softly, grabbing a tissue out of my pocket and wiping my tear stained face until it felt dry enough.

" It's fine. Even heros have to cry sometimes. I think." Todoroki responded and nodded towards the trashcan in the corner of his room.

" You can throw that away there. " He said. I nodded and teleported over to the trashcan, depositing the damp tissue into it then teleported back onto the bed.

" When I was young, my dad wanted me to surpass All Might, and he pushed me, and pushed me. I was only 5 and while my siblings lived a normal life, I was training almost all day. My mother had tried to stop it, saying I was only 5 and he was pushing me away to hard. It was true, but he didn't want to believe it was too much for the son of a number two hero. He wanted me to be stronger than All Might so much that he forget I was only a child. My body couldn't handle it. My mother called my left side unbearable and poured boiling hot water on my face. That's where I got this. " Todoroki said, gently touching the large burn around his left eye.

" I said I would never use my left side until Midoriya taught me something important. It was my power. Mine, not my father's. I only realized it when he said it. I was being stupid this whole time, but of course, I'm not going to be like my father. I will use my power in my own way, and I will become a successful hero without his help. I will surpass him, even All Might. " Todoroki said.

" Your nothing like your father Todoroki.. I just want to say that. You may be his son but all he cares about is being the top hero. That is your goal too, but you have a heart, you have pure determination that isn't based off of hate. Your amazing.. You have made it so far. I know that I've only known you since I got in but I've seen you improve so much. " I said. Todoroki gave me a soft smile, looking down at the ground.

" Yeah.. Thank you. " He said. I looked at him.

" Don't thank me. I'm simply speaking the truth. " I said, returning the smile.

" Your past.. It seemed to trouble you. You don't have to tell me but what exactly is it? " Todoroki asked, giving me a full option not to tell him. I sighed, taking in a couple deep breaths.

" My mother and father pushed me so far.. I threw up every time I used my quirk, sometimes even passing out. It's what happened yesterday, though that's very rare. I was an only child, so I was always their main focus, but not in a good way. They didn't care about me. I was simply a mistake that they decided to try and morph into who knows what. I eventually got my quirk together and started training on my own. I was both mentally and physically abused by the time I was 8. I was really happy when we got dorms because it meant I didn't get new scars and bruises every day I went home. My relationship with my parents is true hate. I'm sure the only reason they kept me is because I got stronger and they think eventually I will become the number one hero and they may think that I will give credit to them.. Which I won't if I do succeed in becoming a top hero. " I said, forcing a laugh to mask my pain at the end.

I looked over to see Todoroki's eyes wide. My eyes narrowed slightly.

" What..? " I asked, my voice soft. He looked down and then grabbed my arm, pulling it into his lap and pulling up my sleeve.

Silence.

" [ Name. ] " I looked up at him. His eyes locked with mine.

" I can tell that some of these scars are not from your parents. Don't even try to lie. You cut yourself [ name. ] this is not healthy. Especially for someone who wants to be a hero." Todoroki said, pulling my sleeve back down. I moved my arm away.

" Ah.. Yeah.. I know, but just because you know your colorblind doesn't mean you can see the colors.. " I said, looking at the ground. I could feel his stare burn into by body.

" Fine! I admit I'm addicted, but the pain feels good, how do I quit this..? " I said, my voice coming down to a barely audible whisper.

" Let me help you. "